~ bicara sendiri ~

on stranger's tide.. ~

2012-01-26T05:14:00.002+08:00

u know when sometimes u wake up.. feeling different than u felt when u woke up on other days.. u know its different right.. either u felt something new.. or u woke up feeling more fresh than u felt yesterday.. or u woke up to a home made breakfast.. or waking up early in the morning on a beach to catch the sunrise.. or waking up to see the one u love.. or waking up to an sms or a call from someone u cared about.. its a different experience.. i'm not sure if everybody noticed it.. but i'm sure everyone have felt it at least once in their life.. and these kind of feelings & experience doesnt come often.. if it does to anyone, alhamdulillah syukran lillah..

love..it is one of those feelings & experience that doesnt come often.. of course u love ur cats, ur parents, ur children n ur frens.. maybe u love the whole world.. and of course Allah's love is above and beyond our grasp and imagination.. but a specific love that u feel for someone other than those familiar to u.. love for someone u are not familiar with.. someone that touched ur heart in a way no one else could.. i felt that a few times.. but not too often.. maybe because its special that Allah gave u his blessings in the form of love for another..

to love n be loved.. even to love a stranger.. is a mystery like no other..

because we were all strangers.. before Allah destined us to meet.. n know one another.. even love each other.. subhanallah walhamdulillah ^^<3

i am thankful.. ~ jazakillah ummi ^^,

2011-08-13T08:07:00.001+08:00

I AM THANKFUL:    FOR THE WIFE
WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT,
BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME,
AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.
FOR THE HUSBAND
WHO IS ON THE SOFA BEING A COUCH POTATO,
BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME
AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS.
FOR THE TEENAGER
WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME, NOT ON THE STREETS.
FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM EMPLOYED.

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTYBECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.
FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE

FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING  BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME.
FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT  BECAUSE IT MEANS WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.
FOR THE PARKING SPOT I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION.
FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM WARM.
FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH WHO SINGS OFF KEY BECAUSE IT MEANS I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES AT THE END OF THE DAY BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS  BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.
AND FINALLY, FOR TOO MUCH E-MAIL BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE FRIENDS WHO ARE THINKING OF ME.
SEND THIS TO SOMEONE YOU CARE ABOUT. I JUST DID. Live well, Laugh often, & Love with all of your heart!

great quotes on love [part 1] ~

2011-07-01T01:56:00.000+08:00

"At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet. " ~ Plato

"Before I met my husband, I'd never fallen in love. I'd stepped in it a few times. " ~ Rita Rudner

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. " ~ Lao Tzu

"Can miles truly separate you from friends... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? " ~ Richard Bach

"Come live in my heart, and pay no rent. " ~ Samuel Lover

"All love shifts and changes. I don't know if you can be wholeheartedly in love all the time." ~ Julie Andrews

"A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge." ~ Thomas Carlyle

"A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy. " ~ George Jean Nathan

bila rasa itu kembali ~

2011-06-29T05:59:00.000+08:00

bila rasa itu kembali..
aku berharap ia pergi..
dan kembali lagi..
agar aku sedar diri..
sedar masih ada jiwa & hati..

~ bicara sendiri

Unggun - Bersih ~

2011-06-28T21:52:00.002+08:00

Semakin lara kita didera bara -
kita laungkan juga pesan merdeka:
Demokrasi sebenderang mentari
sehasrat hajat semurni harga diri.

Lama resah kita - demokrasi luka;
lama duka kita - demokrasi lara.
Demokrasi yang angkuh, kita cemuhi;
suara bebas yang utuh, kita idami!

Dua abad lalu Sam Adams berseru:
(di Boston dijirus teh ke laut biru):
Tak diperlu gempita sorak yang gebu,
diperlu hanya unggun api yang syahdu.

Kini menyalalah unggun sakti itu;
kini merebaklah nyala unggun itu.

~ A Samad Said

ada dalam tiada.. ~

2011-06-28T04:11:00.002+08:00

dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani.. ~

andai kau rasa jemputan hatimu tiada balasan.. yakinlah..

tiada salahnya bertepuk sebelah tangan.. kerana Tuhan menadahkan seluas udara & dunia menyambut tepukan cintamu dari-Nya..

andai kau menitiskan airmata tatkala dihimpit rasa duka jiwa yang lara.. percayalah..

tiada ternilai titisan airmata dirobek kecewa & putus asa.. kerana Dia sedang membersihkan hatimu utk kembali mengenali kasih-Nya..

andai kau terasa ditinggalkan sendiri, kesepian & sunyi.. sedarlah..

tiada khilafnya bersendirian & kesunyian.. kerana seisi alam menemanimu tatkala Tuhan menyambut lembut rintihan munajat jiwamu kepada-Nya..

~ bicara sendiri..

bermula semula.. ~

2011-06-27T17:04:00.002+08:00

dengan lafaz basmalah,
kembali aku memulakan langkah.
moga kelak terlalai tidak,
dengan izin Empunya gerak..

destinasi :~
mengenal diri [masih mencari]
cinta [moga kekal dan tidak pergi]
dia [melengkapi diri]
keredhaan-Nya..[insyaAllah] ~

~ bicara sendiri .. kembali ..

#nowplaying Lengkap Semula ~ Butterfingers

Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet [Chapter 2]

2011-06-27T06:09:00.005+08:00

*picture credit to Waida Zakaria ^^,

On Love

Then said Almitra, "Speak to us of Love."

And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said:

When love beckons to you, follow him, Though his ways are hard and steep.

And when his wings enfold you, yield to him, Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.

And when he speaks to you, believe in him, Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays

waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.

Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your most tender branches that quiver in the sun, So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth. Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.

He threshes you to make you naked. He sifts you to free you from your husks. He grinds you to whiteness. He kneads you until you are pliant; And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure, Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor, Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself. Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love. When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but

rather, “I am in the heart of God."

And think not you can direct the course of love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course. Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.

But if you love and must have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

[End of Chapter 2]

Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet [Chapter 1]

2011-06-27T06:02:00.005+08:00

Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet

The Coming of the Ship

Al Mustafa, the chosen and the beloved, who was a dawn unto his own day, had waited twelve years in the city of Orphalese for his ship that was to return and bear him back to the isle of his birth.

And in the twelfth year, on the seventh day of Ielool, the month of reaping, he climbed the hill without the city walls and looked seaward; and he beheld the ship coming with the mist.

Then the gates of his heart were flung open, and his joy flew far over the sea. And he closed his eyes and prayed in the silences of his soul. But as he descended the hill, a sadness came upon him, and he thought in his heart: How shall I go in peace and without sorrow?

Nay, not without a wound in the spirit shall I leave this city.

Long were the days of pain I have spent within its walls, and long were the nights of aloneness; and who can depart from his pain and his aloneness without regret?

Too many fragments of the spirit have I scattered in these streets, and too many are the children of my longing that walk naked among these hills, and I cannot withdraw from them without a burden and an

ache.

It is not a garment I cast off this day, but a skin that I tear with my own hands. Nor is it a thought I leave behind me, but a heart made sweet with hunger and with thirst.

Yet I cannot tarry longer. The sea that calls all things unto her calls me, and I must embark. For to stay, though the hours burn in the night, is to freeze and crystallize and be bound in a mold.

Oh, that I could take with me all that is here. But how shall I? A voice cannot carry the tongue and the lips that give it wings. Alone must it seek the ether.

And alone and without his nest shall the eagle fly across the sun. Now, when he reached the foot of the hill, he turned again towards the sea and he saw his ship approaching the harbor, and upon her prow the mariners, the men of his own land.

And his soul cried out to them, and he said:

Sons of my ancient mother, you riders of the tides, How often have you sailed in my dreams. And now you come in my awakening, which is my deeper dream.

Ready am I to go, and my eagerness with sails full set awaits the wind.

Only one more breath will I breathe in this still air, only one more loving look cast backward, Then I shall stand among you, a seafarer among seafarers.

And you, vast sea, sleepless mother, Who alone are peace and freedom to the river and the stream, Only another winding will this stream make, only another murmur in this glade, and then shall I come to you, a boundless drop to a boundless ocean.

And as he walked he saw from afar men and women leaving their fields and their vineyards and hastening towards the city gates. And he heard their voices calling his name, and shouting from the field to field telling one another of the coming of the ship.

And he said to himself:

Shall the day of parting be the day of gathering?

And shall it be said that my eve was in truth my dawn?

And what shall I give unto him who has left his plough in mid-furrow, or to him who has stopped the wheel of his winepress?

Shall my heart become a tree heavy-laden with fruit that I may gather and give unto them?

And shall my desires flow like a fountain that I may fill their cups?

Am I a harp that the hand of the almighty may touch me, or a flute that his breath may pass through me?

A seeker of silences am I, and what treasure have I found in silences that I may dispense with confidence?

If this is my day of harvest, in what fields have I sowed the seed, and in what unremembered seasons?

If this indeed be the hour in which I lift up my lantern, it is not my flame that shall burn therein.

Empty and dark shall I raise my lantern, And the guardian of the night shall fill it with oil and he shall light it

also. These things he said in words. But much in his heart remained unsaid. For he himself could not speak his deeper secret.

And when he entered into the city all the people came to meet him, and they were crying out to him as with one voice.

And the elders of the city stood forth and said:

Go not yet away from us. A noontide have you been in our twilight, and your youth has given us dreams to dream. No stranger are you among us, nor a guest, but our son and our dearly beloved. Suffer not yet our eyes to hunger for your face.

And the priests and the priestesses said unto him:

Let not the waves of the sea separate us now, and the years you have spent in our midst become a memory.

You have walked among us a spirit, and your shadow has been a light upon our faces. Much have we loved you. But speechless was our love, and with veils has it been veiled. Yet now it cries aloud unto you, and would stand revealed before you. And ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.

And others came also and entreated him. But he answered them not. He only bent his head; and those who

stood near saw his tears falling upon his breast.

And he and the people proceeded towards the great square before the temple. And there came out of the sanctuary a woman whose name was Almitra. And she was a seeress.

And he looked upon her with exceeding tenderness, for it was she who had first sought and believed in him when he had been but a day in their city.

And she hailed him, saying: Prophet of God, in quest for the uttermost, long have you searched the distances for your ship. And now your ship has come, and you must go. Deep is your longing for the land of your memories and the dwelling place of your greater desires; and our love would not bind you nor our needs hold you.

Yet this we ask ere you leave us, that you speak to us and give us of your truth. And we will give it unto our children, and they unto their children, and it shall not perish. In your aloneness you have watched with our days, and in your wakefulness you have listened to the weeping and the laughter of our sleep.

Now therefore disclose us to ourselves, and tell us all that has been shown you of that which is between birth and death. And he answered, People of Orphalese, of what can I speak save of that which is even now moving your souls?

[End of Chapter 1]

ME ~

2009-02-08T14:20:00.011+08:00

I have reasons why its sour

I have time to make it sharper
Don't you make me feel no longer
I would love to read the answer

Where's the thing call beautiful
I don't think it's wonderful
Just to fake it ain't so sweet
Ain't so numb and its not because of me

If I take it all for granted
I would spread word through the pieces..~

- ME, butterfingers

masih terngiang2 lagu ni versi unplugged di istana budaya
dinyanyikan versi slow oleh saudara emmet (x seperti biase)
with acoustic guitars n no drums
tak tau kenape terase sebak seketika
tergamam mmg dh tentu..

a tribute to the memories
thank you for the happiness & sadness

the laughters & tears

the loves & heartbreaks

the rise & falls

the moments of anger & patience

moments of stupidity & intelligence

the confusion & realization

for the lives & deaths

-bicara sendiri-

mari hadapi kenyataan! ~

2009-02-06T08:20:00.001+08:00

I was tagged by Anne in fb hehe

" Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you."

1. My kryptonites are peanuts & kacang parang in whatever form, seriusly.. i'm allergic to both uhuk!

2. For no apparent reason, i named my beloved 2nd hand modenas kriss Amy

3. I'm in love with the unplugged version of ME at sesi istana budaya butterfingers! berhantu la org kate huh! btw i was there to see it live! n waiting for the dvd release to watch it again and again. hint hint ;)~

4. Single, available & still searching for my significant other, err.. anyone? :P~

5. My age coincide with the year, every year from 2000. add the first two digits with the last two. eg: 2009=20+09. u get the idea.

6. I wish i had done better in previous relationships. Tapi tetap redha yg sudah ditakdirkan. amam! teroskan osahamu!!

7. Now i'm trying to be very very optimistic with qada' & qadar. to the point sampai kdg2 org lain x bleh terima.

8. I have Thalassemia minor with G6PD. a blood deficiency. wiki it.

9. I love cats. I have joint custody of Buyat with along, the only cat left in the family now. Missed Shiki a.k.a. ct, she was once the garfield of the family. hope shes doing ok wherever she is now.

10. Looking for a good listener, advisor & secret keeper? I'm one (classified ad haha :P~)
i believe that everyone just need sumone to talk to, who honestly listens & try to understand. and that is the essence of understanding, friendship, love & a good relationship i think. open ur heart & free ur mind!!

11. I hereby pledge my allegiance as a disciple to YM Tuan Guru Hj. Md. Radzi bin Hj. Hanafi, guru utama silat cekak pusaka ustaz hanafi

12. I believe at a certain level, love must be understood & appreciated even if its not mutual

13. Shouldve taken philosophy or sumthing

14. I used to do ollies (on a skateboard of course) 5 decks high & knee high 50-50s

15. My favorite hobby once was drawing, with pencils

16. Sumtimes i like to go cuckoo! lalalalaa. esp at home :P~

17. Think women in local traditional clothing (esp baju kurung) look very nais & pretty :)~ what to do, i'm an old fashioned kinda guy hehe

18. I'll surely lost track of my stuffs if i didnt put them at their usual place & have trouble remembering dates too huhu

19. I'm praying & hoping for someone's heart to change.. for the better i hope :)~

20. Looking forward to end this chapter of: my life as an undergrad

21. The best person in the whole wide world is my Umi! a.k.a. mother :D~

22. I love photography!

23. I despise d same old questions of work & marriage by relatives bile blk kampung. let it be! kamon la

24. Have a bad addiction to nicotine. there i said it! uhuk2

25. Masih mencari kepastian yang tak pasti

-bicara sendiri-

KERANDA 152 ~ USMAN AWANG 1967

2009-02-03T15:13:00.002+08:00

Tempahan T-Shirt KERANDA 152 (BACA SAMPAI HABIS UTK SEJARAH KERANDA 152)

Merujuk kepada salah satu program "Perarakan Keranda" – dinamakan Keranda 152 yang akan diadakan pada pertengahan bulan Februari oleh Gabungan Penulis Nasional (Gapena) maka aku telah mengambil keputusan untuk menangguhkan tarikh akhir tempahan CETAKAN KE-DUA t-shirt KERANDA 152 kepada 15 Februari 2009 di mana sebelum ini tarikh akhirnya ialah 13 Februari 2009. Ini supaya para pembeli dapat memakai t-shirt tersebut pada hari perarakan yang akan dinyatakan tarikh kemudian.

Informasi t-shirt :

Saiz XS, S, M, L dan XL.
Cetakan bersaiz A4 (depan sahaja).
T-shirt terdapat 2 color sahaja iaitu putih dan hitam.

T-shirt warna putih

Cetakan 2 warna (Maroon & Hitam)
Harga : RM 25.00 (tidak termasuk kos penghantaran)

T-shirt warna hitam

Cetakan 2 Warna (Merah & Putih)
Harga : RM 27.00 (tidak termasuk kos penghantaran)

Kos biaya hantar

RM 5.00 (semenanjung Malaysia)

Bayaran boleh dibuat di Maybank 1580 6001 3854 (Meor Khairol Nizam)

Emailkan ke lanterajiwa@gmail.com
nama, alamat penghantaran, saiz, no. telefon dan bukti pembayaran (attach)...

T-shirt akan mula dicetak pada 05 Februari 2009

dipetik dr blog http://lantera-jiwa.blogspot.com

KERANDA 152

Anak Melayu
Panas dadamu membakar baju
Kita arak keranda 152
Ke tanah perkuburannya Parlimen

Sepuluh tanah nafas ini terhenti
Hari ini jangan lagi menyanyi

Sebentar lagi malam akan tiba
Tiap pintu dan jendela sudah dijaga
Bayang-bayang tidak bisa lewat jalan raya

Anak Melayu
Namamu telah diseru
Jawablah
Sebelum lidahmu jadi bisu

Usman Awang (1967)

Puisi tulisan Usman Awang ini akan diabadikan di atas kemeja T oleh rakan kita, lanterajiwa. Saya syorkan semua pengunjung blog ini supaya memesan kemeja T ini dari blog lanterajiwa.

3 Mac ini genaplah 42 tahun peristiwa mengusung Keranda 152 oleh pejuang bahasa Melayu di tahun 1967.

Tahun 2001 menyaksikan apa yang disuarakan dan ditentang oleh pejuang bahasa di tahun 1967 menjadi kenyataan. Keranda 152 bagai sudah dipaku rapat dan sedia untuk dikambus apabila bahasa Melayu diketepikan sebagai bahasa ilmu dalam pengajaran Sains dan Matematik di sekolah.

Penghujung tahun 2008 mula kelihatan riak-riak pejuang bahasa sudah mula bersuara. Selama ini ramai tokoh bahasa Melayu yang tenggelam dalam dunia sendiri. Seronok sendiri berhimpun membaca puisi yang tidak didengar orang. Sibuk mencari Melayu di Afrika hingga lupakan nasib Melayu di tanah sendiri. Tambah seronok bila ada yang diberi gelar pendita, lalu khusyuk membilang biji tasbih dan lupa untuk mengambil peranan dalam masyarakat. Saat menjelang pilihanraya 2008 yang sepatutnya menjadi medan dan peluang paling penting untuk melobi sokongan kepada perjuangan mengangkat bahasa Melayu telah berlalu begitu sahaja.

Adakah tahun 2009 akan memahat sejarah sebagai titik perubahan ke arah usaha mengembalikan bahasa Melayu ke tempat asalnya?

Samad Said: Jika demo gagal, undi protes PPSMI

Sejarah Keranda 152

Keranda 152 Bahasa Kita Air Mata & Maruah Kita
Persatuan Linguistik Malaysia 2002
Cetakan Pertama 1968
108 mukasurat
dibeli dari ujanailmu 23 April, 2007

Perjuangan memartabatkan bahasa Melayu telah melalui sejarah yang panjang. Pejuang bahasa sebelum merdeka adalah juga pejuang bangsa dan pejuang kemerdekaan. Keranda 152 adalah satu episod dari rantaian perjuangan meletakkan Bahasa Melayu di tempat yang selayaknya.

Buku Keranda 152, Bahasa kita, Air Mata & Maruah Kita, adalah sebuah buku yang sudah lama saya cari. Ianya merupakan buku yang diterbitkan semula oleh Persatuan Linguistik Malaysia pada tahun 2002. Buku asalnya berupa himpunan tulisan berbentuk stensilan pada tahun 1968. Ianya berupa cetusan hati untuk memperingati ulangtahun peristiwa penentangan terhadap Rang Undang-Undang Bahasa Kebangsaan (1967). Buku ini menceritakan detik detik peristiwa penentangan yang berlaku pada 3 Mac, 1967 di Balai Budaya, Dewan Bahasa & Pustaka.

Apa sebenarnya Keranda 152? Ianya merujuk kepada Fasal 152 Perlembagaan Persekutuan yang meletakkan Bahasa Melayu sebagai Bahasa Rasmi dan Bahasa Kebangsaan. Bahasa Melayu sebagai Bahasa Kebangsaan adalah salah satu dari kontrak sosial yang telah dipersetujui bersama oleh rakyat berbilang bangsa.

Sewaktu detik mencapai kemerdekaan pada tahun 1957, tuntutan rakyat untuk menjadikan Bahasa Melayu sebagai sesatunya Bhasa rasmi telah tidak dapat dipenuhi oleh parti yang memerintah. Alasannya kerana Bahasa Melayu belum benar-benar bersedia untuk mengambil-alih tugas Bahasa Inggeris yang telah digunakan oleh penjajah dalam segala urusan rasmi dan pentadbiran negara. Atas sebab itu, Bahasa Inggeris masih dibenarkan penggunaannya, untuk tempoh masa 10 tahun lagi. Tempoh itu dirasakan manasabah untuk setiap rakyat Tanah Melayu mempelajari dan menguasai Bahasa Melayu.

Apa yang berlaku pada tahun 1967, Bahasa Inggeris masih diberi ruang yang besar sebagai bahasa rasmi. Badan NGO Melayu rasa terkejut dengan beberapa peruntukan dalam Rang Undang-Undang Bahasa 1967 yang masih mengekalkan Bahasa Inggeris dalam beberapa bidang terutama bidang kehakiman.

Apa gunanya merdeka, jika bahasa anak pribumi dianggap sebagai bahasa kelas ketiga dan tidak layak diguna di negara sendiri? Adakah tempoh 10 tahun masih tidak cukup untuk setiap rakyat memantapkan penguasaan Bahasa Melayu sebagai bahasa perpaduan? Inilah yang diperjuangkan oleh pejuang bahasa dalam tahun 1967. Mereka berasa bagai dikhianati oleh para pemimpin yang kononnya memperjuangkan kepentingan bangsa Melayu.

Sekumpulan 9 orang peguam Melayu telah menghantar memorandum menyuarakan bantahan namun tidak dipedulikan oleh parti yang memerintah.

Kemarahan orang Melayu membuak-buak. Seramai 2,000 orang mewakili 120 pertubuhan orang Melayu telah berhimpun di Balai Budaya, DBP pada petang Jumaat 3 Mac, 1967.

Perhimpunan ini menyaksikan orang Melayu bersatu tanpa mengira fahaman politik. Peristiwa itu juga diingati dengan ucapan Tun Syed Nasir Ismail, Pengarah DBP yang menitiskan airmata mengenangkan nasib Bahasa Melayu;

"...saya menangis bukan kerana takut, tetapi air mata ini lahir daripada keharuan hati sanubari saya mengenangkan nasib bangsa saya. Saya tidak boleh buat apa-apa sekarang ini. Saya terikat..."

Kemarahan rakyat sudah tak terbendung menyaksikan sekumpulan aktivis bersedia mahu berarak ke Bangunan Parlimen. Mereka mahu mengusung Keranda 152 yang membawa jiwa bangsa yang sudah ditamatkan hayat oleh bangsanya sendiri.

Peristiwa Keranda 152 akan diingat sebagai satu episod dalam sejarah perjuangan Bahasa Melayu. Balai Budaya yang menjadi saksi peristiwa bersejarah itu, kini sudah ditukar nama kepada Balai Tun Syed Nasir. selepas peristiwa 13 Mei 1969, kemudiannya seakan menjadi penyelamat bila Bahasa Melayu dijadikan bahasa pengantar utama dalam dasar pendidikan negara. Kemuncak perjuangan ini menyaksikan lahirnya Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia pada tahun 1970 yang menyaksikan buat kali pertama, Bahasa Melayu digunakan sepenuhnya sebagai pengantar utama.

Tahun ini genap 40 tahun Peristiwa Keranda 152. Ramai yang mungkin lupa, tak tahu atau buat-buat lupa. 40 tahun Keranda 152 dan 50 tahun merdeka adalah saat yang mungkin sesuai untuk bermuhasabah dan menyoal diri...

Di manakah Bahasa Melayu?

Masih di dalam keranda?

dipetik dr blog http://jiwarasa.blogspot.com/

PEMBERITAHUAN : Al-Fatihah ~

2009-01-27T08:11:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum..

PEMBERITAHUAN:

ayahanda kepada shahayu akmam bt shaharuddin (shamam),
telah pulang ke rahmatullah pd petang semalam (isnin, 26 januari 2009) di rumah beliau di bandar manjalara.

salam takziah diucapkan kepada keluarga beliau. semoga shamam sekeluarga tabah menghadapi ujian dr Allah.

mari kita sama-sama sedekahkan doa dan alfatihah buat arwah.
semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat & ditempatkan bersama mereka2 yang dikasihi Allah
insyaAllah.

Al Fatihah..~

setiap yang bernyawa pasti akan kembali..~
-bicara sendiri-

sesi istana budaya : butterfingers PART 1 ~

2009-01-19T17:58:00.013+08:00

[ :: album kenangan sesi2 istana budaya butterfingers di sini :: ]

lets start with the headlines (my headlines that is hehe):

1) obama will be inaugurated tomorrow with monumental expectations from the whole world, the ceremony will be shown live on hbo i think

2) israel began withdrawal from gaza, maybe due to the US inauguration tomorrow

3) hamas declared ceasefire of rocket attacks for one week and peace in gaza, alhamdulillah

4) pas won the kuala terengganu parliamentary by election by a large margin

6) our silat (silat cekak pusaka hanafi usj & shah alam) team did a silat demonstration at klpac open day

5) and butterfingers performed at istana budaya with 4 consecutive back to back shows!

the only headline that i was there physically was the 'Sesi Istana Budaya

: Butterfingers' and the demo @ klpac.

so firstly i think i'll do a review about the show. well not an actual professionally written review of the show, just what i felt and seen. oh btw i'm not a musician of any sorts so i wouldnt be able to comment on those aspects either hehe.

to start of, i went to 3 of the 4 shows:

- unplugged 1996 - 2001, 2.30pm 17th january 2009

- transcendence 10th anniversary rock out, 2.30pm 18th january 2009

- mari hidup kembali, 8.30pm 18th january 2009.

these 3 shows were the best presents i could ever get for myself for my 29th birthday (thanks to minah also hehe). the first show was an unplugged session of the best of butterfingers from 96 to 2001. it was a free seating show in dewan lambang sari istana budaya. the maximum seating was 300 pax and all the tickets were sold out a few days before the show huhu!. i managed to get one luckily! alhamdulillah. i think i was the last one to get a ticket, maybe.

theres an interesting chain of events that led to how i managed to get the tickets huhu..

the story goes like this..

to be continued.. ~

1000+

2009-01-15T05:30:00.002+08:00

the number for today is 1013..

thats the number of Palestinians who have died from 3 weeks of Israel new war..
estimated 1600 children injured & 300 children died..
estimated 678 women injured & 76 women died..
from a total of 4,500 injured..
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/middle_east/7828884.stm

hmm.. i dont know what to feel right now..

what does anyone feel about this?
why is the world doing nothing to stop this genocide?

http://english.aljazeera.net/news/americas/2009/01/200911402950253579.html

this crime against humanity..

may Allah help us all..
for not doing anything..
-bicara sendiri-

hari ini hari mulia ~

2009-01-10T14:23:00.009+08:00

mati hidup kembali - butterfingers

lagu ini di tujukan khas kpd aku sempena hari lahirku yg ke 29..
juga kepada sahabat handai se-capricorn-ku & juge January Babies yg terchenta! yeahh!! :D~ posting khas lagu autoplay hehe. juga sedikit coretan buat renungan yang merenung.

pada hari ini 28 thn yg lalu..
sekitar jam 3 pagi suatu hari di musim dingin..
tanggal 10 januari 1980, 21 safar 1400 hijrah..
di sebuah hospital kotaraya inggeris..
telah tertulis lahirnya aku ke dunia..
atas asbab ibu & bapa..

umi & ba..
tidak kan terbalas pengorbanan & perjuangan mereka..
melahirkan & membesarkan..
walau aku dimatikn & dihidupkan kembali..
berkali-kali berulang kali..
tanpa redha mereka tiada gunanya mendakap seisi dunia..

tidak kan tercapai bintang di angkasa..

akhirat kelak entah ke mana..
tanpa ayah & bonda siapalah kita..
kasihi mereka seumur usia..

kerana ba & umi..
hari ini aku & diriku di sini..
menyambut hari meningkatnya usia..
hari umi mengandung & melahirkan..

hari ba menyambutku dengan seruan azan..
sesungguhnya..
hari ini hari mulia..

kerana mulianya kasih kedua ibubapa..

-bicara sendiri-

i'm 19 years old ~

2009-01-10T06:07:00.006+08:00

that was what a friend told me when i wished her a happy birthday just a few days ago. the reality is a bit off (really far off actually :P~). sorry weh, whoever u are haha. i wish u all d happiness, success n health in d world that Allah can give you :)~

well3x.. today its my turn..

got together with a few friends.. the usual outing of sate minang in kg baru. the main course was of course one round of sate minang (or two :P~). i had a bowl of yummy but stingy in the nose(tesedot masuk idong plak kuah die) 'bakso'. i would go for another round of sate minang, but was full bcos i had a few plates to eat at a cheque presentation & hi-tea event at yayasan al-bukhari. attended with put(hepi bday tomorrow! :D~) n her brother megat. owh btw tabung haji donated RM100K to the the KL foundation to criminalize war, and yayasan al-bukhari donated a whopping RM3.5 million to the cause! the total amount circles my mind for quite a while, RM 3,600,000 ringgit malaysia! and alhamdulillah the proceeds will go the cause of aiding the suffering of palestinians in the gaza tragedy.. may Allah bless the contributors :)~

ok dh lari topik.. then maya presented her cake(thx maya! :D~). if i'm not mistaken it was engraved with the yummy words 'Happy Birthday January Babies!' she even brought her mancis. then the spiral candles was put on, lighted n blown. pictures were taken. n we ate. it was delicious! if i wasn't full, would've eaten more :P~. btw, maya sells her delicious home baked cakes, pm me for contact details to order(komisen sket haha). ha maya kenduri bln 2, tahniah n hope all goes well! kad jgn lupe ye.

thank you so very much to yan for the notebook, to mam for the coklat movie hehe(not chocolat), to mel for the comfortable accommodation(hepi bday soon! :D~), to maya for the delicious cake n to raina for her noble wish to buy us dinner yeay!(theres always a next time kn :P~).

then i went back to subang to catch up with the usj & shah alam demo team training. the demo team from ibu pejabat came to train with us. terima kasih kpd abg azhan, abg karim & the team kerana sudi datang trening dgn kami yg x seberapa ni. our demo team put up an impressive show for the crowd. intensive training continues next week for our demo on the 18th of january 2009 at klpac open day. jemput dtg ye.

well now that i'm 19(+10) and 1 year short to the big three-o, i've put some seriously thought of resolutions for myself n my future(ecece on a serius note gitu).

but i would like to start of with an immediate wish list, which are as follows:

wish #1 = i wish & pray for justice, peace, relief n safety for our palestinians brothers & sisters that are suffering in the gaza tragedy aminn (HUMANITY! ACT NOW!)

wish #2 = tickets to butterfingers | sesi istana budaya(dh ade yg nk sponsor yeay!! hope to get ticket cepat2 before they're sold out huh)

other wishes n resolutions will be made public when the need arise.

owh sebelum terlupa.. hepi 29th bday to me! :D~

(dh sedar diri huhu)
-bicara sendiri-

George Galloway | 2005 speech | Seattle

2009-01-09T06:36:00.006+08:00

a must see speech by george galloway(my new hero hehe), an opposition british mp (member of parliament). although its a speech about the anti war movement back in 2005, the issues in his speech span the ages, and its still relevant today. particularly relevant to the current humanitarian crisis in gaza, in which the total deaths of israel's attacks & murders are nearing 700 palestinians souls, men, women & children :( (may Allah bless those who have passed, n help those who are suffering, aminn ya rabbal 'alamin)

please, do watch & learn a thing or two from him.

insyaAllah.

butterfingers | sesi istana budaya

2009-01-09T06:34:00.004+08:00

for full info, click http://www.butterfingers.com.my

WAKE UP CALL!!

2009-01-08T15:13:00.004+08:00

"PENGUMUMAN! :
Aman Palestin akan mengadakan rally Rise For Gaza di Stadium Melawati Shah Alam pada 10 Jan '09 (Sabtu), 10pg. Tlg kerahkan seramai mungkin termasuk anak2 utk tunjukkan keprihatinan. Al-Jazeera TV akan buat liputan. Kalau boleh bawa placard, banner atau kain rentang in English or Malay. Sebarkan."

http://www.amanpalestin.org/

if anyone can make it to s alam this saturday, pls do, they need as many people as possible. we need to help them as much as possible. because this is all we can do, n its sad that we cant do more. that we value our comfortable daily lives more than the suffering of our brothers n sisters.

humanity is truly a-sleep now in the fire-s of gaza.

i read an article about the jews of the warsaw ghetto resistance against the nazis occupiers in 1943. n its so overwhelming to me n i almost burst into tears, that the situation is the same NOW in 2009 with gaza. but the irony is, israel is doing the exact same thing to the palestinian as what were done to the jews of warsaw by the nazis. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Warsaw_Ghetto

n i got to know this from george galloway, a british politician with a very staunch stand on the israeli occupation of palestine, off all people in the world. search him on youtube.

the video below is a must see to really comprehend n understand the full situation of the conflict, n why it has been going on for 60+ years. pls people, do watch: http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-6604775898578139565&hl=en

n let us continue our support for the palestinian even after the humanitarian crisis n tragedy of gaza ends(pray that it ends soon). insyaAllah

untuk sumbangan ikhlas:

( Please make cheques payable to MERCY MALAYSIA. CIMB account number: 1424-000-6561053. For more information, please contact 03-2273 3999. )

spread the word around.

Peace, Propaganda & the Promised Land: Media & The Israel-Palestine Conflict

2009-01-08T06:43:00.001+08:00

Sesi Istana Budaya Butterfingers (updates)

2009-01-07T21:30:00.011+08:00

Taken from butterfingers official website:

PENERBITAN BUTTERWORLD presents

Sesi Istana Budaya Butterfingers

Saturday
17/01/09
1996 - 2001 Unplugged
With guest band Bunkface
2:30pm - 4:00pm
RM 35 per entry

Saturday
17/01/09
Mari Hidup Kembali (Sessi Gitar Kapok)
Dengan band jemputan Hujan
8:30pm - 10:00pm
RM 35 per entry

Sunday
18/01/09
Transcendence 10-year Anniversary Rock Out
2:30pm - 4:00pm
RM 35 per entry

Sunday
18/01/09
Mari Hidup Kembali (Sessi Gitar Karan)
8:30pm - 10:00pm
RM 35 per entry

maklumat lanjut di SINI

nk pegi tp.. mcm xleh pegi.. sbb mcm x cukup sen!
waaaaaaaaaaa!! sapa mau kasi advance?? huhu

mintak2lah ade rezeki dlm mase terdekat ni..

-bicara sendiri-

wake up for GAZA! ~

2009-01-06T18:59:00.009+08:00

boycot THESE PRODUCTS!

produced by companies helping zionist to kill & destroy GAZA!

boycot trade with the U.S. & the U.S. dollar!

PENGUMUMAN! :

Aman Palestin akan mengadakan rally Rise For Gaza di Stadium Melawati Shah Alam pada 10 Jan '09 (Sabtu), 10pg. Tlg kerahkan seramai mungkin termasuk anak2 utk tunjukkan keprihatinan. Al-Jazeera TV akan buat liputan. Kalau boleh bawa placard, banner atau kain rentang in English or Malay. Sebarkan.

please do anything YOU CAN to help the victims of Israeli oppression in GAZA n Palestine

spread the word around..~

faculties of mind~

2009-01-06T05:03:00.010+08:00

one of my favourite butterfingers song

from tanscendence..

which will be celebrating its 10th year anniversary this year!

with a 3 day butterfingers showcase middle of january..

and get this.. its @ Istana Budaya wehh!! yeahh!!

if it goes through.. it will be one hell of a show!

planned showcase :

- transcendence 10th anniversary

- kembali showcase

- 2005-2008 unplugged

more info here

n butterfingers will lay low(again huhu) for 5 years after that!

due to band members life commitments..

(lamenye! hopefully with another masterpiece when they resurface)

a classic.. always waiting for this song in their line up of songs

in any show.. enjoy :D~

It's gonna be a fifty-fifty treatment
You'd be in and never outdoor
You'd be king long lost forgotten

It's gonna take a while I once remembered
There were lies I used to tell her
Hidden secrets make it rotten

On and on the days go on
And on and on for what I made wrong
Fall this time the times are useless
Have you been through wonderful minds?

Shout out loud the ants are coming
There's a thought that ever was
Once again and not forever

On and on the days go on
And on and on for what I made wrong
Fall this time the times are useless
Have you been through wonderful minds!

click here for full lyrics

faculties of mind

-butterfingers

good luck kpd sume yg final exam..
to anyone whos doing anything..

semoga Allah membantu kita..

semoga Allah membantu & selamatkn saudara2 kita di Gaza..

Amin ya rabbal 'alamin..

pergolakan bukanlah alasan~

2008-12-15T03:34:00.005+08:00

kebekuanmu penyebab kedinginan

setelah sandiwara semalam

semalam yg hampas

kau pecahkan pintu kau bakar emosi ini

kau mahu egoku pecahkan kaca mimpiku..

aku tahu pergolakan bukanlah alasan

untuk kita tidak memahami situasi

lihatlah sofa biru

musim2 yg menghukum

aku belum mati

aku masih disofa ini masih..

aku belum mati

aku masih disofa ini masih disofa ini..

esok hari cuti akan ku bentangkan layar

aku masih disitu oh bukankah..

Sofa Biru

-Meor-

in other words..~

2008-12-13T02:39:00.005+08:00

i've always wanted to write sumthing in mind..

but went on to write another..

it doesnt mean that what i wrote is not what i'm thinking..

its just dat i think too much..

n all the thoughts are jumbled up..

and not in order..

and when i got some of it in order..

the others just seem to fade away..

or have lost its place of importance in that order..

but some of the lost ones are actually of importance..

i'm not very good at translating thoughts into words..

good written words dat is..

but i do try my best to write..

which often resulted in writing something that..

i think would be easy for others to comprehend..

to write every little detail of sumthing that i'm thinking...

wish i could do that..

well actually i can..

i just dont..

but sometimes i do..

maybe it takes time..

to quote from 'fly me to the moon' :

" poets often use many words to say a simple thing

it takes thought, and time and rhyme to make a poem sing..

to be sure you'll know what i'm saying

i'll translate as i go along..

in other words, please be true.. "

fly me to the moon..~

2008-12-13T02:03:00.003+08:00

patutnya aku study utk labtest pg ni.. tp asyik terpk ttg sesuatu..

oh well.. guess i'll save it for another time..

note to self= STADI LA WEHH!! huhu!~

song of the day = fly me to the moon (nat king cole version)

aku tersalah bidang ke? patut aku amik philosophy kot haha :P~

-bicara sendiri-

syahdu..~

2008-12-05T05:35:00.011+08:00

terigt plak lagu ni, nasyid lame.. terngiang2 kt telinga mase tgh bwk moto atas highway nk blk umah.. ujan lebat.. seb baek ade baju ujan.. alhamdulillah.. aku pn nyanyi la part2 mane yg igt..

mase menunjukkan hampir jam 4:30am.. masih lg terpacak duduk kt sah maju.. biase la lepak lepas klas silat, bole bwk smpai ke subuh huhu.. seb baek angin sepoi2 pagi yg semakin kuat dan titis2 air hujan bwk petanda nk hujan lebat..

suasana lepak yg jarang2 berlaku.. tp itulah yg ditggu hari demi hari.. jadi plak ari ni.. di buka kn hati sahabat2 utk bercerita.. sehingga ada yg menitiskan airmata.. terasa syahdu mendengar cerita dan berita.. namun diselang seli dgn senyum dan gelak ketawa.. bole ke camtu haha :P~ alhamdulillah.. hidup ini ada suka dan duka, ade juga pengubat jiwa, hilai & ketawa hehe.. "kita boleh sedih dan kecewa, tapi jgn sekali2 putus asa" - YM

Syahdu
-Suara Firdaus-

Oh Tuhan…
Syahdu nian mayamu ini
Namun syahdu lagi cintaMu
KesyahduanMu tiada bisa terurai
Dek segala insan maya ini

Mataku melihat sang ombak
Menongkah buih di lautan
Lambaian nyiur selembut gemalai jejari
Bagai menggamit ku kesana

Telinga ini mendengar
Bisikan bayu kicauan burung
Desiran ombak menyentuh hatiku ini
Laranya hati mendambakan cintaMu

Oh Tuhan…
Akan kuta’zim kemulianMu
Akan kusemai keagunganMu
Agar terbuka segala pintu hati ini
Bersama belas hidayahMu…

Allahumma anta Rabbi Lailahailla anta..

Halaqtani wa ana 'abduka wa ana 'ala 'ahdika wa wa'dika mastata'tu..

A'uzubika min sharri ma sana'tu..

Abu laka bi ni'matika 'alaiyya wa abu bizambih..

Farfirghli..

Fainnahu la yarghfiru zunuba illa anta..

Subhanallah..

"Ya Allah. Engkau adalah Tuhanku, tidak ada Tuhan selain Engkau,

Engkau yang menciptakan dan aku adalah abdi-Mu, dan aku berada dalam perjanjian dengan-Mu, ikrar kepada-Mu, (yang akan ku laksanakan dengan) segala kemampuanku;

dan aku berlindung pada-Mu dari dosa-dosa ku,

dan mengakui (dengan sebenar-benarnya) nikmat-Mu kepadaku, dan aku mengakui dosaku,

maka ampunilah aku,

kerana tidak ada yang boleh mengampuni dosa-dosa kecuali Engkau

Maha Suci Engkau Ya Allah.."

tiada bicara, airmata, ketawa, suka & duka tanpa izin dariNya..

-bicara sendiri-

what to write, wart 2 ride..~

2008-12-02T05:24:00.005+08:00

last weekend :

friday :

- class(cyber), sate minang wif frens(kg baru), lepak minum dlm ujan lebat(keramat)

- back home in ujan lebat around 4am(saturday)

saturday

- late for photoshoot(usj), lepak(usj), blk umah(bsp), hantar air n blackout huh(kerinchi)

- back home around 11pm

sunday

- park moto(lrt kj), kenduri nik(ttdi) *TAHNIAH NIK & MIZA :D~

- small unplanned reunion wif old frens(literally old haha:P~)

- kenduri abg anne(usj), blk umah(bsp), some work(home), lpk n discussion(sah maju usj)

- back home around 4am(monday)

deymn! bole tahan la penuh.. bile la bole tido d whole weekend? bile mati kot huhu..~

-bicara sendiri-

something useful..~

2008-11-22T23:28:00.008+08:00

ha ni di apdet atas request haha :P~

Which Hogwarts Class Would You Teach?
	You would teach Potions. You are a creative person. You're the type of person that could change a situtation around in a short matter of time. You are also artistic and when it comes to new ideas, you're the one everybody else turns to.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

Which Lord of the Rings Character Are You?
	You are part Legolas. You are a loyal fighter. You stay to your word and would never backstab anybody. Your arrows hit your sworn enemy and when they do, they sting. Your friends never have to worry about you...as long as they don't cross you.
	You are part Frodo. You're a bit of a wimp...but, if you must do something, you will overcome fears to do it. Even so, you are a caring person who likes to have friends. You don't look or think like you were born for greatness...but you never know!
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

What is your theme song?
	Your theme song is "Soak Up the Sun" - Sheryl Crow. You are a very laid back person. You let life happen and just go with it. You are optimistic and think the rest of the world needs to "lighten up" and just take it how it's given to you.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

Which Sesame Street Character Are You?
	You are Oscar the Grouch. You can be gruff and often have a chip on your shoulder. Despite your intelligence, manners (and cleanliness) are of little importance to you. At the same time, you have a few very close friends who you allow to see a softer, kinder side of you.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

selamat hari raya aidilfitri 1429 :D~

2008-10-03T15:59:00.002+08:00

gajah di lebuhraya..~

2008-09-18T04:25:00.003+08:00

sedang aku menunggang motosikal terchenta pulang ke rumah selepas 'jamuan' berbuka, kira kira dalam jam 10 mlm lbh kurang..

sambil didendangkn lagu2 dari kembali-butterfingers, joget global, bebas dan seterusnya maharani.. lagu kegemaran aku : mati hidup kembali, x sempat dengar sbb trip blk umah lalu elite cuma ambil masa dlm 15 minit dr exit USJ.. lgpn tu lagu last dlm album ni..

pd masa yg sama, terigt aku satu video di youtube yg aku tgk mlm smlm.. temubual butterfingers di melodi.. yg sesungguhnya sangat membenarkan lagu merpati sejoli dr album selamat tinggal dunia.. to quote : "wartawan hiburan! pondan! homoseksual!"..

seperti biasa, melodi potong klip2 intebiu yg hanya dpt mereka manipulasi.. x tau la ape derang ni dengki khianat kt butter.. menyampah plak aku dgr komen2 suara latar yg penuh dgn kejahilan huhu (saba2, puasa ni).. x tau ape maksud underground tp nk komen.. x tau ape maksud indie tp nk komen.. x tau latar belakang n evolusi musik butter (bunyi butter) tp nk komen.. men redah je x tengok signbod ini la jdnye.. cube la wat background study sket, research sket baru la komen bagus2.. ni hapak pon tarak.. geram plak aku..

ha berbalik kpd tajuk utama.. sedang2 sume tu berlaku.. ternampak la lampu terang di side mirror kanan aku.. lori besar ni.. laju nmpk gayenye.. aku pn mcm biase amik kiri masuk emergency lane a.k.a. laluan motosikal DIY.. lori tu pon potong la.. mmg besar lori tu..

tapi yg aku tekejut smpai ternganga mulut.. ade benda lagi besar kt belakang.. get this.. ade GAJAH besar nk mampus atas lori tu!!! huhuhu.. masyaAllah!!.. dgn selambenye gajah tu diletakkan di blkng lori tu tanpa cover ke hape ke.. besar weh gajah tu, bapak gajah agaknye.. mmg aku tekejut beruk dpt sesikat pisang la jawabnye.. tgh2 aku tenganga tu, aku tepk.. gajah ni kene culik ke ape.. ke ade sarkas in town yg aku x tau? .. tapi satu lg benda yg wat aku pelik.. gajah tu mcm tengah menari2 atas lori tu.. ke kiri, ke kanan, kirii, kanan.. gajah tu gerakkan badan.. mungkin gajah tu tgh dengar lagu kegemaran die kot(sangka baik) mcm aku.. wallahua'lam..

seekor gajah di lebuhraya malaysia.. tu la org kate.. jauh berjalan, luas pandangan.. ha mmg luas la gajah tu haha.. semestinya satu pengalaman yg nais dan unik utk aku.. tesengih aku kejap sblm exit bandar saujana putra.. dan alhamdulillah kembali aku ke rumah dgn selamat..

walaupun lebuhraya sunyi, jiwa tak semestinya sepi..~

-bicara sendiri-

lucky..~

2008-09-12T10:20:00.004+08:00

i just listend to a song by jason mraz n colbie cailat (the title is as this post ), n non-coincidentally(new word?) it happens to be the default song of this blog of mine..

for now lah.. we'll see how long this song be playing in my head..

obviously its a love song.. n the words have tied its tunes to me.. i have to admit.. jason's (mraz) songs are really reallllyy good.. i think all his singles are hits.. so enough bout him.. he shud thank God that he has the talent.. n this song maybe his way to say that his thankful.. perhaps not to God.. but by feeling lucky ur actually saying thanks to a greater power for all the things that makes u feel lucky..

i think i'm lucky.. but u know.. if u say it too often (lucky), its sounds quite sucky like that bwitney song(sorry to anyone who liked that song of hers) huhuhu..

anyway.. I AM lucky.. hmm better make a list of why i'm lucky.. everyone making a list nowadays.. its easier n straight to d point neway..

the list of my luckiness (is this a word?) as it pops in my head:

- although our beloved shiki have been missing for a few weeks now.. umi cried hmm, i know umi missed her very much.. we're lucky that we've been given almost 9 years of happiness wif her, to care n love her.. now we leave her in Allah's hand..

- eventhough it seems there's not enough food/money to go by.. there is still enough money n food to go by.. alhamdulillah (miraclously we cooked todays sahur huhu :P)

- i have 1 mummy cat (tomot) n 3 of her small kittens (bowyen, budeyh n bulat).. although they just dont seem to care where they answer nature's call huhu (it smells like shit, cat shit) n it pisses me off sumtimes.. we're lucky that we have them.. cats have a way of making u smile n be at peace..

- last but not least.. i'm lucky to be given the chance by Allah to go through Ramadhan this year.. i ask Allah to forgive me if i have not done well this time around.. i pray that i'll be given a chance to meet Ramadhan again.. aminn..

- i'm just lucky to be alive n well.. alhamdulillahi rabbil 'alamin..

(the list was not of point form, more of paragraphic(a new word again?) so what haha :P)

so if ur reading this.. ur really lucky!! your alive!!

yeah u might have some.. or many shortcomings.. might not have enough money to spend.. might have failed in ur last attempt at love.. might just have plain bad luck all the time(or so it seems).. might have the most depressing feeling in the world.. might have fallen in the same hole twice.. might have etc etc..

just remember.. YOUR JUST LUCKY TO BE ALIVE!!

alhamdulillah!! praise be to Allah!

so make the best of it..

make the best of Ramadhan..

insyaAllah.. by Allah's will..

wallahua'lam..~

ps: if i dont c ya.. slmt berpuasa, berbuka, dan bersahur.. jgn lupe doakan saya & semua :)~

"aku bertuah dengan izinNya..~"

-bicara sendiri-

kesah yusuf a.s. dan zulaikha..~

2008-09-03T16:22:00.008+08:00

satu babak..

fahri cuba solat tetapi tangisan & kesedihan teramat pedih tidak tertahan menggangu tumpuan..

banduan : (sambil tergelak sinis) "anak al-azhar kok tidak tau apa itu isi solat"
banduan gelak lagi..
banduan : "jangan-jangan kau solat cuma kalo ada masalah?!"
terus gelak melihat kebingungan & kesedihan fahri..

dua babak..

fahri menangis kecewa, meruntun sedih tatkala mendapat surat dibuang dr al-azhar semasa di penjara..

banduan : (sambil gelak jahat) "dikeluarkan dr al-azhar?"

terus gelak..

banduan : "itu bukan kiamat fahri!"

sambil melempar surat ke sisi fahri..

banduan : "ayuh bangunn!! bangun fahri! bangun!!"

lalu diangkat fahri ke dinding!

banduan : "ALLAH sedang berbicara denganmu fahri!!"

banduan : "ALLAH sedang mengingatkanmu utk tidak sombong!!"

fahri menepis lalu mengadu kesedihan penuh kecewa..

fahri : "Apa salah saya pd ALLAH??!!"

banduan gelak berdekah2..

fahri : "kenapa ALLAH buat begini pada saya?!"

fahri tidak keruan..

banduan : "istighfar indonesia!! istighfar!!"

lalu ditarik baju fahri, digoncang2 tubuhnya..

banduan : "ingat lagi siapa dirimu!! hahahaha!! apa yg telah kau lakukan selama ini?! haa!"

banduan bergerak ke blkg fahri..

banduan : "tidakkah kau SOMBONG fahri??!! haa?!" kau merasa PALING BENAR!! kau merasa PALING SUCI!! bahkan dihadapan isterimu sendiri!! hahahhaa!!"

fahri : (sambil menepis membuat penafian) ahh!!"

banduan terus gelak..

lalu serius berkata..

banduan : " kau ingat? kisah yusuf a.s. dan zulaikha ha?"

masih lagi tergelak..

kembali serius..

banduan : "zulaikha telah menuduh yusuf telah memperkosanya! padahal zulaikha tertawan dengan ketampanan yusuf.. fitnah!! itu semua fitnah, fahri!! zulaikha memfitnah yusuf memperkosa dia sehingga yusuf dipenjara.. Apakah yusuf berontak? tidak fahri.. yusuf tau ALLAH sedang berbicara pdnya! ko mau tau apa yang dikatakan yusuf??"

fahri terus bingung kesedihan..

banduan : (menolak fahri ke dinding!) "kau mau tau apa yg dikatakan yusuf??!! haa?! kata yusuf.. "Ya ALLAH, jika memang kehidupan penjara lebih bererti bgku drpd dunia luar, maka aku lebih memilih tinggal di penjara tp dekat dgnMU, drpd aku hidup bersama manusia pendusta!!"

....

banduan : (dgn nada sedih) "ALLAH sedang berbicara kepadamu tentang SABAR dan IKHLAS.."

banduan : "SABAR.. dan IKHLAS.. itu ISLAM, fahri.."

fahri tertunduk malu.. tak tertahan lagi kesedihan dan keinsafan yang menyelubungi diri..

astaghfirullahal azimm//

astaghfirullah rabbal baraayaa//

astaghfirullah ha innahu kana ghaffaraa//

walaa haulaa walaa quwwata illa billah//

satu & dua babak dr filem ayat-ayat cinta..~

its a 3 yrs old weh!.. nais :D~

2008-08-26T05:31:00.005+08:00

this ones really good.. a 3 yrs old describing starwars ep 4 : a new hope..
klaka siot haha.. yet very charming n entertaining :D~

quote: "but dont talk back to darth vader, he'll getcha!"

enjoyyy!! :D~

picasaweb updated!

2008-08-13T15:45:00.003+08:00

http://picasaweb.google.com/ummumtel
updated wif pics from kenduri & nikah along, n mmu konvo 2008, 1st n 3rd day..
sory 2nd day x dpt dtg, ade family matters to settle..
congrats to FIT graduates esp Edi n Ijut! tahniah korang! :D~

ps: hepi bday mar! :D~

ps2: nk add to tahniah list, telupe plak huhu.. tahniah to apai, joen, diana, celine, efry n everyone yg konvo from FCM, FIT, FOM & FOE.. tahniah from d bottom of my heart :)~

between knowing & believing.. and both ~

2008-08-09T16:50:00.004+08:00

hmm.. suddenly this thought struck my mind while rempiting back to SP (and listening to loops of butterfingers "mati hidup kembali") from 1st day of mmu convo 2008.. any ideas u guys?

will elaborate soon.. insyaAllah..

ps: lupe plak huhu, congrats to all frens, parents & family of frens yg convo ari ni, esok n lusa :D~ tahniah to ann, elya, mazlin, amy zurina, atah, faralina, jah, shidi, maria, napi, paddy, amy tut, tini, edi, ijut, zura, faiz n last but not least dear catherine(x sempat jumpe huhu) :D~ (sape2 yg aku lupe pls pm me to add to list huhu)

-bicara sendiri-

kenduri along & kembali butter..~

2008-08-08T02:56:00.012+08:00

aduhhh..
byk benda nk kene buat & apdet ni tp jeng3x..
aku maaaalaaaaasssss nk mampusss nyahahaha!!
wahai malas.. jgn lh ko asyik nk kacau aku..
pegi la.. org lain kn ramai lg huhu..
a'uzubillahi minasyaitanirrajim!!
huh..

ok la apdet kenduri along je sket.. lenkali sambung lg..
tahniah along telah kenduri dgn jayanya alhamdulillah
walaupn hijau aku yg x same mendpt perhatian haha...
takpa2.. asalkan ijau..
of tone sket je wehh lalalala:P~

ha lg sket la tmbh..
album baru butter - kembali aku dh beli wehh!! haha
mmg sgt nais weh album ni.. tebaek!!
nnt aku review..
beli la weh walaupon korang dh donlod kt memane torrent lalalala..
n fevret song aku album ni: mati hidup kembali..
sgt seswai dilayan seorang diri..
terutama time tgh merempit di highway haha
naiss :D~

ps: sape2 rase dh wajib kawen tu silelah ek.. mas kawen selangor 80 hengget je, pastu dh halalan toiyib dh :P~ (ckp sng la weh haha.. demmit)

-bicara sendiri-

JEMPUTAN WALIMATUL URUS (HANNANI & SYAHRIL)

2008-08-01T09:59:00.014+08:00

terlebih dahulu.. rasa syukur yg tidak terhingga kpd Allah SWT dan berkalung2 tahniah yg x terhingga diucapkan kpd Along & Ail kerana telah melepasi rintangan pertama dalam mendirikan rumahtangga, selamat dijabkabulkan, Alhamdulillah :)~ i'm so happy for you along.. may ur life be happy & prosperous with the blessing n guidance of Allah aminn..

tahniah juga diucapkan kepada kontigen wajadiri MMU Cyber atas kejayaan korang sume(3 perak [2 utk sepsg tongkat :D~ 1 utk spsg kaki]& 1 gangsa [papan sekeping wanita tuu! tebaek a fiena n d geng] yeahh!). korang sume dh berjaya! :D tahun depan kite jumpekt unimas, mungkin sebagai rival plak lalalla :P~.. target : EMAS! EMAS! EMAS!

di sini aku ingin menjemput sesiapa yg mengenali pasangan pengantin (HANNANI & SYAHRIL) dan keluarga ke majlis kenduri kahwin mereka yang akan berlangsung pada 2/8/2008 ni (Sabtu ni)di Dewan Serbaguna Precinct 8 Putrajaya (dekat 7E & pasar precinct 8).
alhamdulillah mereka telah selamat dijabkabulkan hari sabtu lepas(26/7/2008) di Masjid AlFalah USJ 9 mase wajadiri utm skudai berlangsung.
haa pagi tu gk kucing aku beranak 4 ekor haha naiss.

berikut adalah detail majlis :
tempat : Dewan Serbaguna Precinct 8 Putrajaya
tarikh :2/8/2008 (Sabtu ni)
masa : 12pm - 4.30pm (bersanding : 1pm)

dengan segala hormatnya semua dijemput hadir..
mohon maaf sgt2 sbb las minit infom huhu..
sebarang maklumat lanjut sila hubungi aku seperti dibawah..

terima kasih.
hamam
0193674670
ummumtel@gmail.com

alhamdulillah along dh selamat dijabkabulkan.. pasni sape la plak lalaallaa :P~
-bicara sendiri-

percayalah wahai sahabat..~ (PART 1)

2008-07-24T13:22:00.014+08:00

khas buat sahabat2 skuad Wajadiri MMU Cyber 08 yg dikasihi :)~
(download link lagu2 di hujung posting ni)

Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston - When You Believe

http://youtube.com/watch?v=CxIN79n4jVo

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Long before we knew we could

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayers so often prove in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
So swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles, when you believe(When you believe)
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve(You can achieve)
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears
But when your blinded by your pain
Can't see your way straight through the rain
A small but still,resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles(miracles)
When you believe(when you believe)
Though hope is frail(through hope is frail)
Its hard to kill(it's hard to kill)
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

You will when you believe
You will when you believe

David Archuleta's Version

R Kelly - I Believe I Can Fly

I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

Hey, cuz I believe in me, oh

If I can see it, then I can be it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly

DOWNLOAD LINKS
mariah carey & whitney houston - when you believe.mp3
David Archuleta - When You Believe Studio Version.mp3
r kelly - r kelly - i believe i can fly space jam.mp3

note to self..~

2008-07-22T09:30:00.003+08:00

-these movies are quite interesting, record if can :
1) history boys
2) summer school (betul ke title ni? huhu)

- dont miss dark knight at the cinemas.. n watch it with someone..

- dont postpone anything that u can do earlier.. pls self.. DONT FORGET THIS!!

- QUIT BEING A LAZY ARSE!! huhu

-bicara sendiri-

fikrah aku, kau & dia..~

2008-07-21T04:21:00.005+08:00

hari tu sedang berbincang masalah seorang sahabat.. dia menyebut tentang fikrah, katanya lebih kurang begini :
"mungkin fikrah aku & dia berbeza.."
aku agak terkejut bila dia sebut perkataan fikrah.. terus aku tersebut :
"wah.. dah lame tak dengar orang sebut fikrah ni ahaha"
kemudian kami berdua tergelak besar.. mungkin terkenang suatu zaman yg membentuk fikrah kami.. yg asalnya sama.. mungkin berbeza tempat dan masa..

fikrah maksudnya pemikiran atau cara berfikir seseorang (kalo x silap aku, jika silap betulkan hehe).. ada juga yg menyebut fikrah sebagai idea..

ya memang fikrah kita sering berbeza.. fikrah seseorang selalu mula terbentuk pertamanya; cara didikan atau asuhan sejak kecil, sekolah, universiti etc.. keduanya; persatuan, pergerakan, fahaman atau kumpulan yg diikuti.. ketiganya; pekerjaan seseorang.. keempatnya; pengalaman seseorang dalam melalui perjalanan hidupnya..

jadi seseorang yang mungkin fikrahnya sebegini semasa awal hidup sehingga remajanya, boleh berubah menjadi sebegitu setelah memasuki universiti.. kemudian berubah lagi apabila menyertai persatuan, pergerakan atau kumpulan.. kemudian evolusi fikrah akan terus berlaku apabila memasuki alam pekerjaan.. bergaul dgn bermacam golongan.. dan seterusnya meningkat umurnya.. berkahwin.. bertambah pengalaman dan lebih matang..

fikrah aku dan sahabatku yg tersebut boleh dikatakan lebih kurang sama.. kerana mungkin cara asuhan keluarga dan sistem pendidikan yang lebih kurang sama.. tetapi selalu dapat dilihat pada seseorang.. tahap kehidupan mana dalam hidupnya yang membentuk fikrahnya sekarang.. selalunya proses pembentukan pada tahap kehidupannya itu yang paling penting & berkesan dalam hidupnya sehingga ia kekal.. wallahua'lam..

lalu apakah persoalan yg berbangkit mengenai fikrah ini..
adakah orang yang fikrahnya berbeza, susah untuk memahami satu sama lain.. atau kita yang enggan memahami?
adakah fikrah yang berbeza itu salah.. atau kita yang salah menghakiminya?
atau adakah kita menghukum seseorang itu berdasarkan fikrahnya?

banyak lagi persoalan yg mungkin timbul atau berbangkit..
tetapi akhirnya ingatlah bahawa setiap fikrah itu ada asalnya.. dan setiap yang mmpunyai asal itu mengikut fitrah.. yang akhirnya sudah tentu berjalan mengikut sunnatullah.. yang akhirnya juga bergerak dengan keizinanNya.. tidak bergerak yang tergerak tanpa izin Empunya gerak.. maka digerakkan fikrahku sehingga berbuahlah ia disini..

jd berbalik kepada masalah sahabat aku ni... jalan penyelesaian x juga dpt ditemui pada hari yg sama, sehingga mengalir airmatanya selepas selesai solat asar... sedih dan sebak aku mengenangkan keadaan seorang sahabat yg dlm kesusahan, masalah dan ujian yg datang bertimpa2.. kerana aku pernah melalui keadaan yg lebih kurang sama.. tetapi aku ikhtiarkan juga.. selepas subuh hari berikutnya aku cadangkan beberapa jln penyelesaian yang mungkin dalam 1 sms yg panjang lebar.. alhamdulillah diterima.. moga2 diselesaikan masalahnya dan diberi ketenangan kepada hati dan jiwanya aminn.. dengan izinNya insyaAllah.. kerana ketenangan dan penyelesaian, malah masalah dan ujian datang dan pergi dengan limpah kurnia dan izinNya.. tiada daya dan kekuatan kita tanpa Dia..

La haula walaa quwwata illa billah..~

wallahua'lam..

-bicara sendiri-

the ironically ironic ikan 3 rasa..~

2008-07-17T05:04:00.007+08:00

sangat ironic..
thats what my friend said when we were lepak2 minum at mamak just a few hours ago.. i ask him what was so ironic.. he said:
"last night debate (between anwar ibrahim & shabery) was a good sign for democracy in Malaysia,
n then suddenly today they arrest him (anwar ibrahim) using 20 officers, some of them in masks, we will be the laughing stock of the civilized world"
thats what he said with a cynical grin..
well what do you know.. thats how things goes in Malaysia.. you can have two or more totally different flavours together, like ikan 3 rasa, asam masin or jeruk(lapa la plak huhu).. soo.. lu pk la sendirii!!

some updates regarding the much talked about debate yesterday(except of course not so highly regarded in the mass-utusan-tv3 media) :

1) who won actually? a result of a poll done by MalaysiaKini
http://malaysiakini.com/news/86203

2) d whole debate on youtube.. do watch..
http://youtube.com/watch?v=wyJ_mFB3OQk&feature=related

the history & the gift..~

2008-07-16T07:52:00.012+08:00

the history of semalam..~

semalam..

aku tgk debat kt tv9 sbb astro x on2 blk walaupn dh baya.. dh baya kn sawi kn?
title debat : "hari ni bentuk kerajaan, esok turun harga minyak!"
debat tu mmg aku dh tggu lame.. sejak dpt tau debat tu on.. aku siap set reminder..
mule2 aku mmg saspek x on la debat tu.. anwar kot.. tp alhamdulillah on..
x sia2 aku x pegi memane huhu..
it was quite a historical moment in Malaysian media history.. esp. for media prima.. n who knows maybe this will be a start of a new political openness of the mass media in our beloved country.. wallahua'lam.. a fair summary of d debate can be read at malaysiakini.com ..
n d result of d debat to me was quite obvious..
it wouldnt be, if ur a hard headed old skool penyokong parti watever..
if u happen to watch it or have watched it.. think about it.. really2 think about it..
its not about corporations, about leaders or allegiance.. its about YOU..
YOU and the PEOPLE YOU LOVE.. n how all this oil thing is gonna affect us the people.. so think about it.. n decide by yourselves..
if u havent watched it.. i guarantee u can find it on youtube earliest today..
or u can catch it again on astro awani.. their playing re-runs.. even got 2 shows after that to discuss d debate (terase mcm 8 march 2008 all over again haha naiss :P~)

semalam juga..~

aku merempit ke putrajaya b4 midnite.. to help a friend.. n hopefully make a tiny bit of cash(cari rezeki :P~) for servicing a laptop.. which belongs to a friend of his.. dat fren of mine cought the fever huhu.. but theres sume good news.. ahhaa.. there maybe love in the air.. dat was great news! its been a while la kn to hear dat from him since the last one haha :P~.. he said theyre just friends.. will get to know each other, find things they have in common etc.. n then who knows.. and he says, and i quote "we cannot be to choosy" in choosing.. find one that fits.. n stick to it.. in a good way la helloooo.. henti kn la pk bukan2 tu haha :P~
ha btw.. lupe nak update.. acai dh betunang wehh!! akhirnyaa!! :D~ great news also.. so maybe who knows.. finally KJLS will close its doors..
but that remains to be seen la kn.. aku masih bicara sendiri neh huhu.. demmit..
and that bit of cash may not make it to my pocket.. cos the laptop seems ok sbnrnye.. we'll see la how.. end of story..~

the gift of hari ini..~

hari ini..
keputusanku untuk mencari sesuatu...
yang aku tak tahu di mana..
mungkin dalam mimpi...~

wallahua'lam..~

syukur pada Allah untuk sejarah semalam & hadiah kehidupan hari ini..~

-bicara sendiri-

blogger vs. blog-paster..~

2008-07-13T21:43:00.005+08:00

i noticed dat my blog actually contain more pasted stuff than my own huhu.. so i was thinking maybe we'll start a new term : blog-paster = sumone who paste stuff from other people/sites on his/her blog, haha :P~ vs. bloggers..

i'm not a good blogger, a writer apetah lagi.. but sumtimes ideas spring up.. n i just blurb it out
on this url of my own which is termed a blog.. i just read sum of my frens blogs.. n one i kenot open (saje ek ko mam x bg aku bace, mentang2 aa mam hahhaa :P~ *which i jus found out later dats its closed due to unforseen circumstances ye mam :P~) n ifound out most of them contains self written diary style typings of wat happen, their stories n wat not.. i wud like to try to do dat.. jus dat i'm very(change upon request haha :P) d pemalas ok.. but in a good way haha :P~ x paham sudah.. ini blog aku lalala..~

n sum others just pasted wat they like on their blog.. same like me.. n theres sum others who
mix both.. like me oso.. so watever la..

its just dat we tend to clasify or categorize things so we cud or seem or konon2nye to understand them better.. but usually we tend to clasify things especially people to fit our understanding of them.. n that usually results in the mother of all f**k-ups known as assumptions.. so dont classify people.. get to know them.. say hi.. helloo.. smile :D~ greet them.. n then classify them hahaha :P~ no lah.. just be honest.. leave the classifying to the CLASSIFIED section of the newspaper, magazine.. or the dem government.. turun! turun!! (shhh.. jgn repot tau aku ckp cani huhu :P~)

so dont classify me/sumone or judge me or golongkan aku dlm ape2 kategori yg korang nak.. try to know me first.. then u decide lh.. watever u want to decide.. its ur decision..

but i'll try to write/blog/type/paste better stuff.. yg aku nk la kn hehe :P~

wallahua'lam..

-bicara sendiri-

butterfingers - kembali ..~

2008-07-11T06:13:00.008+08:00

butterfingers will be releasing their latest album titled KEMBALI soon..~

will be in store 3rd - 4th week of july, so save a bit to buy it, its gonna be affordable, tebaekk, cool n watever u wanna call it.. guaranteed.~

butterfingers - kembali album cover..~

"If you noticed at our page (http://butterfingerstheband.blogspot.com/) discography,,we have added k e m b a l i cover. the latest album will look like this. Its easy to find,,but for now,,dont rush to the store yet cause we are listing down the outlet in Malaysia including Sabah Sarawak. There are around 300 retailers and we need some time to compile. Hope you guys R convenience enough wit that.It ll be up for grabs once we send the retailers list asap.

Many Thanks

~dax~"

surat orang rombau nogori 9..

2008-07-11T05:30:00.002+08:00

kepado pak lah... PM paling sey sayang...I lap u

namo sey ni KARIM...pengundi bedaftar DUN CHOMBUNG, PARLIMEN
ROMBAU...alaaaa tompek si KERY yg abah'eh JAMALUDIN tuuu...tak kona'????
menantu PAK LAH tu laaaaa....suko bona' sey ngan dio tu...ghaso nk buek
menantu lak...

sey nulih surat ni bukan apo...sajo yor nk ucap'an timo kasih kek pak lah
sobab naik'an hargo minyak ari tu..
lopeh ini bilo hargo minyak naik..hargo barang lain pun naik gak
laaaa...banggo boto' sey ghaso...mcm duduk kek LAS VEGAS lak...HIDUP PAK
LAH!!!!!!!

sey janji ngan pak lah yg sey akan ubah tebiat sey dari makan ikan kombung
yg dah merah menyalo mato'eh & pocah bedorai porut ikan tu pado ikan koring
yor...

sey sanggup bekoban untuk UMNO dan bn..
anak sey yg 7 org tu yg dh buleh buek team futsal tu boleh la bekojo lopeh
sekolah buek bantu mak ayah diorang ni haaa...kok tk b o kojo pun buleh la
jadi mat rompit kek SENAWANG tu...dapek gak la duit sesikit...buleh gak la
menoruskan tradisi keluargo sey ni yg nyokong UMNO dan bn

ghaso2 sey ni nk ubahsuai bilik bilik yg ado kek ghumah sey...nk buek
tompek bolo ikan & tanam sayur cagho hidroponik (apo binchek'eh ni???) sey
tepakso tanam kek dalam bilik sobab sey tingga' kek umah flat...

rebet yg pak lah bagi kek sey memang melampuh2 lobeh'eh dari keperluan
sey..

bilo sey congak2.. sey cumo guno 20 sen yor duit minyak moto sehari.. ado
la untung 21 sen...bak kato si SAIDA AF6 "ok la tuuuu"

sey tak pakai pon keto... sobab bilo minyak naik hargo.. sey kono jual
datsun kotak mancis sey tu.. dapek gak la duit....tokih2 pun ado la
hasil'eh..

team futsal sey tu, sey nak suruh eksesais hari2 berjalan kaki tak pun
naik beska' poie sekolah...ado la 5 km...dokek yor tuuuuu...
walaupon gaji sey ni rm 1000..sbona'eh terlobih cukup untuk keluargo sey...

buek permulaan nk ngubah kehidupan sey..
sey tak akan guno'an gulo bilo buek kopi... tak akan guno'an topung untuk
buek kodok

sey nak ganti'an bogheh ngan ubi... tiap hari sey ngan keluargo akan
berposo (kecuali pado hari hari yg dilarang beposo)
sey akan buek minyak masak sendiri
itu antaro caro sey ngubah caro hidup..
ade banyak laie caro
semuo kerano UMNO dan bn...

dan sey mintak bona' pak lah naik'an laie hargo minyak yg ado..
bukan tu yorrr.. sey mintak bona' naik'an laie hargo tol sobab org sbolah
rumah sey nih org pembangkang...dio slalu guno highway, biar padan muko
dio...tu la...suko bona' nyokong pembangkang...PAKATAN RAKYAT konon...palo
hayah dio tu...

nnt pak lah buleh la melawat sey dan sedokah pado sey solai kain pelikat
bilo dh nak dokek2 pilihanrayo nanti...
insyaallah kain pelikat tu sey nk bubuh dlm frame dahtu gantung kek rumah...
tapi jangan lupo lak.. pak lah sain otogeraf yor kek kain tu....

jgn lupo pak lah.. naik'an laie hargo minyak..
jgn la diturun'an gaji mentori2 tuuu..siannn diorang...kang apo lak anak
bini'eh nk mentodarah....tak dapek pulak nak menyopping sakan kek obe sea tuh...
sey totap nyokong pak lah..

akhir kato biar pak lah sonang, janji kami papo kedano.. hidup UMNO, hidup
bn..

sekian timo kasih..

ps/ sampai'an salam sey kek si KERY samo PATRICK BADAWI tu yor..tak lupo
gak tuan punyo syarikat SCOMI...sapo tah namo'eh...lupo lak...

pocah kaco, pocah golas,
dah baco, harap baleh.

ahahaha.. pocah porot den baco haa :P~
tp ado kobonaran tersirat neh ha..
-bicara sendiri-

rata-rata..

2007-12-05T02:19:00.000+08:00

kenal dirimu rata-rata..

nescaya kau kenal Tuhanmu yang nyata..

wallahua'lam..

aku dalam diri..

2007-11-22T03:31:00.000+08:00

my previous post was a post at one crazy point in d library..
ignore it if u will haha :P~

ini ada sedikit buah fikiranku.. wallahua'lam

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

carilah aku dalam dirimu..
kerana aku dalam diriku telah kembali..
dan sedang mencari jalan pulang..
dalam perjalanan mengenal diriku yg pjg..

kenalilah aku dlm dirimu utk kenal dirimu..
berjalanlah..
kemudian kembalilah.. ~

- bicara sendiri -

hmm..

2007-11-21T15:17:00.000+08:00

hmm.. what to write, what to write...

basically these times are the most f***ed up times of my life..
i've been a fool.. what a stupid f***ing fool i've been..

so what else is new..

to be continued.. hoping to reduce my foolishness.. soon..
very2 soon..

p/s: sorry for d double f words.. just bleep it if u will..

:: GEMA 2007 ::

2007-03-15T06:32:00.000+08:00

maka pada hari sabtu ini 24 mac jam 9.00 pagi di src balcony, bermulalah persaingan sengit antara band2 muzik di MMU utk menentukan siapa yang bakal berentap di pertandingan akhir GEMA 2007 pada 18 APRIL 2007 di GRAND HALL CYBERJAYA. Satu Lagu wajib 50-80an akan berkumandang dan satu lagu bebas akan menentukan kekuatan mereka. Sekurang2nya 2 peserta MMU diwajibkan utk memberi ruang kpd mereka yg lainnya.. http://bulletin.mmu.edu.my/v3/view/bulletin_main.mmu?s=43501&by=today&pg=main

Berita Baik! Persatuan Literasi Melayu
(PLM) akan menganjurkan Gema 2007
sebagai program seterusnya.

Berikut ialah butiran mengenai
audition dan tarikhnya:

Kategori : Kugiran/Band
Tarikh : 24 Mac 2007
Masa : 9:00 am
Tempat : SRC Balcony
Bayaran : RM5 setiap peserta

MAKLUMAT LANJUT & DOWNLOAD BORANG

:Fantasi Kemuncak Muzik:

audi0warfare 2007

2007-03-06T05:47:00.000+08:00

jommm!!!

2007-03-03T05:17:00.000+08:00

lawati laman web rasmi PSSCHMMUCJ

:: GEMA 2007 ::

2007-03-02T15:46:00.000+08:00

Berita Baik! Persatuan Literasi Melayu
(PLM) akan menganjurkan Gema 2007
sebagai program seterusnya. Berikut
ialah butiran program tersebut:

Nama Program : GEMA 2007 (Pertandingan
Bakat Nyanyian-Dengan kerjasama MMUSIC
Society)
Tarikh : 18 April 2007
Tempat : Dewan Besar, Universiti
Multimedia, Cyberjaya
Kategori : Solo/Duet/Trio and Kugiran.
Hubungi : Khir Farid (0129078958 atau
y! calcatoo atau email
khirfarid@netscape.net)

Berikut ialah butiran mengenai
audition dan tarikhnya:

Kategori : Solo/Duet/Trio
Tarikh : 10 Mac 2007
Masa : 9:00 am
Tempat : E-Theater
Bayaran : RM5 setiap peserta

Kategori : Solo/Duet/Trio
Tarikh : 10 Mac 2007
Masa : 9:00 am
Tempat : E-Theater
Bayaran : RM5 setiap peserta

Kepada yang berminat untuk menjadi
peserta GEMA 2007, sila singgah ke booth
PLM di central plaza atau berikan Nama,
ID, No. Telefon, dan Email kepada nama-
nama di atas berdasarkan kategori
pilihan. Keterangan lanjut boleh juga
menghubungi nama di atas. Sertai
Revolusi Berterusan!

:Fantasi Kemuncak Muzik:

jejari mentega kembali :D~

2007-01-03T11:53:00.000+08:00

Warm up session electrical

- 6 JAN 2007

- ZOUK CLUB

- 3pm

- RM35

- LOVE ME BUTCH , PRANA , SEVEN COLLAR T-SHIRT, 18SGG

PUSHFUL showcase

- 13 JAN 2007

- ZOUK CLUB

- 3pm

- RM35

- OAG , REPUBLIC OF BRICKFIELDS

lets talk 2..

2006-12-29T02:28:00.000+08:00

Coldplay
Talk [1]

Under the great North Star

Try to work out where you are

In the silence of the sea

I don't know where I'll be

In the future, in the past

Going nowhere...much too fast

When I go there, go with me

Cause I don't know where I'm going and I wanna talk

I feel like I'm going where I've been before

And I wanna talk

Take a picture of

Something that you're not sure of

Bring it back to show to me

But I don't know what I see

In the future, find a home

getting nowhere on your own

Got to find your missing piece

Cause you don't know where you're going but you wanna talk

You feel like you're going where you've been before

Nothing's really making any sense at all

You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored

Let's talk let's talk

Do you wanna talk

I'm (unknown)

I'm trying to send a sign

In a language I don't speak

I tried but i can't get through

I'm trying to get to you

But you're difficult to reach

Won't you talk to me

So you don't know where you're going and you wanna talk

You feel like you're going where you've been before

Let's talk

let's talk..

-----------------------------------------------------------

Talk [2]

Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you 'cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you

You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung or do
Something that's never been done

Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they?e talking it to me

So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung or do
Something that's never been done, do
Something that's never been done

So you don't know where you're going and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all, let's talk

Let's talk
let's talk
let's talk..

barriers..

2006-11-07T02:08:00.000+08:00

"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."

- Maulana Rumi -

puisi-puisi maulana rumi...

2006-10-12T05:52:00.000+08:00

sedikit koleksi puisi-puisi ketuhanan Maulana Rumi..
buat renungan.. bekalan Ramadhan..

"Bacalah dengan nama Tuhanmu yang menciptakan.." (Al-'Alaq :1)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

"I've had enough of silent nights, of my unspoken grief, of my tired wisdom.
Come my treasure, my breath of life come and dress my wounds and be my cure.
Enough of words. Come to me without a sound."

"Love means to reach for the sky and with every breath to tear a hundred veils.
Love means to step away from the ego, to open the eyes of inner vision and not to take this world so seriously.
Congratulations dear heart! You have joined the circle of lovers, tell me in your own words when did all this throbbing begin?
I was absorbed in my work in this world but I never lost my longing for home.
One day, exhausted with no strength left, I was lifted suddenly by the grace of Love.
To describe this mystery there are no words."

"Dear heart, you are so unreasonable! First you fall in love then worry about your life.
You rob and steal then worry about the law.
You profess to be in love yet still worry about what people say."

"I will run fast and will keep running until I catch up with the riders.
I will dissolve into air and become nothing so I can reach my Beloved.
I will become fire, burn my house and head for the desert.
I will become all pain, so I can be healed.
I will become humble and turn into soil so your flowers can grow in me.
I will kiss the ground and become water so I can flow to your rose garden.
I will make my face shine like a gold coin so i can become worthy of my Beloved.
I came in this world helpless and fearful but at the end of this journey I will find safety.
The blessing of truth is like water it flows downstream.
I came to this earth so that i can find the way back to my Beloved."

"With love you cannot bargain there, the choice is not yours.
Love is the mirror, it reflects only your essence, if you have the courage to look in its face."

"When you see the face of anger look behind it and you will see the face of pride.
Bring anger and pride under your feet, turn them into a ladder and climb higher.
There is no peace until you become their master.
Let go of anger, it may taste sweet but it kills.
Don't become it's victim you need humility to climb to freedom."

"My dear heart never think you are better than others.
Listen to their sorrows with compassion.
If you want peace don't harbour bad thoughts do not gossip and don't teach what you do not know."

"When you plant a tree every leaf that grows will tell you, what you sow will bear fruit.
So if you have any sense, my friend don't plant anything but love, you show your worth by what you seek.
Water flows to those who want purity wash your hands of all desires and come to the table of Love.
Do you want me to tell you a secret?
The flowers attract the most beautiful lover with their sweet smile and scent.
If you let God weave the verse in your poem people will read it forever"

"Never linger too long with the ignorant, throw stones at their talk.
Walk only with the lovers, the mirror of the soul gets rusty when dipped into muddy water"

"When something unique becomes many, it loses its value.
Yet many are the sorrows of the heart but they become precious gems on the path to the Beloved."

copy pasted from http://mujahidah-an-nafs.blogspot.com/2006/04/poetryby-maulana-rumi.html

"Sesungguhnya dalam penciptaan langit dan bumi, dan silih berganti malam dan siang, terdapat tanda-tanda bagi orang-orang yang berfikir. Mereka yang mengingati Allah ketika berdiri, duduk dan berbaring, dan berfikir dengan dalam mengenai penciptaan langit dan bumi, lalu berkata : Wahai Tuhan kami, tidaklah engkau jadikan semua ini dengan sia-sia, Maha Suci engkau ya Allah maka hindarkanlah kami dari siksaan api neraka.." (Ali-Imran : 190-191)

sempena Ramadhan yg mulia, dan Aidilfitri yg bakal menjelma..
mohon ampun dan maaf segala salah & silap, dosa zahir & batin..
keterlanjuran kata & anggota.. kesilapan bicara.. keburukan sangka & rasa..
semoga Ramadhan kali ini tidak berlalu sia-sia..
andai Ramadhan ini yg terakhir buat hamba..

wallahua'lam..

-bicara sendiri-

kopi & kehidupan..

2006-08-05T17:52:00.000+08:00

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to
visit their old university professor.Conversation soon turned into
complaints about stress in work and life.

Offering his guests coffee,the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to hot coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said:

"If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up,leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is but normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and
stress.

What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups.

Now if life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee in it."

So, don't let the cups drive you... enjoy the coffee instead.

thx n luv to along fo dis story mori :D~

lekuk indah hadirkan pesona...

2006-08-05T17:36:00.001+08:00

Lekuk indah hadirkan pesona

Kemuliaan bagi yang memandang
Setiamu simbol keanggunan
Khas perawan yang kau miliki

Akulah pengagum ragamu
Tak ingin ku menyakitimu
Lindungi dari sengat dunia yang mengancam
Nodai…Sucinya lahirmu

Karena wanita ingin dimengerti
Lewat tutur lembut dan laku agung
Karena wanita ingin dimengerti
Manjakan dia…dengan kasih sayang

Ingin kuajak engkau menari
Bermandi hangat cahaya bulan
Sebagai tanda kebahagiaan
Dari semesta…Cinta kita

Bintang Terang itulah dirimu
Janganlah redup dan mati
Aku dibelakangmu memeluk
Dan…menjagamu

Karena Wanita (Ingin Dimengerti)
-Ada Band-

kerana kita semua ingin dimengerti :D~

~ bicara sendiri ~

jentayu...

2006-07-30T16:35:00.001+08:00

Di paruhmu kemilauan sinar
Menyepuhi sejuta rasa
Kemulian di hatimu
Bening budi terdampar di jagat raya

Di sayap taufan kau jelajahi
Awan gemawan membawa rindu
Kasihmu menentangi kezaliman
Ketidakadilan

Jentayu
Patah sayap bertongkat paruh
Jentayu
Patah paruh bertongkat siku
Jentayu
Patah siku bertongkat dagu
Jentayu
Patah dagu bertongkat kuku

Pinjamkanlah hatimu
Untuk semua

Pinjamkanlah syahdumu ...

Putrajaya - misteri lagenda jentayu cuba diuraikan semalam oleh sekumpulan pelajar dr PLM mmu cyberjaya di taman wetland putrajaya. oleh kerana tertarik dengan kemistikan jentayu, 8 pelajar tersebut menamakan kumpulan mereka jentayu. 8 orang pelajar tersebut ialah, asri a.k.a mamu, amam, rauf, put, azie, yulan, jass & lina. malah ada yang mempersoalkan adakah jentayu itu seekor burung. ada yang mengatakan ia nama seekor burung dan ada juga yang mengatakan tidak.

akhirnya setelah membuat sedikit penyelidikan ke dalam misteri tersebut, didapati bahawa Jentayu adalah (Sansekerta : jatayu)
1. burung garuda yang melepaskan Dewi Sita dari tangan Rahwana
2. burung yang selalu berseru minta hujan (dongeng)
Seperti jentayu rindukan hujan, seseorang yang sangat merindukan kekasihnya [wikipedia indonesia].

jentayu - sheila majid & nora

ahahaha.. mcm berita laa plak :p lallalaaa.. lagu jentayu di tujukan kepada semua ahli jentayu dan juga kepada 'jentayu-jentayu' yg ada diluar sana.. juga kepada mereka yang telah sudi memeriahkan suaikenal PLM 0607 di taman wetland putrajaya semalam. terima kasih :D~

p/s : fad ngn put dipersilakan nyanyi lagu ni, lagi bes dr PCD ok.. wahahaha :-" lalalalaa..

- bicara sendiri -

a song for frens :D~

2006-07-27T15:35:00.000+08:00

fruit basket - memory for you

I was so happy, you were laughing
With a smile that melts everything away

Spring is still far away, inside the cold earth,
Waiting for the time to sprout

For instance, even if today is painful
And yesterday's wounds remain
I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on

I cannot be reborn
But I can change as I go on, so
Let's stay together always

Smile only at me and touch me with those fingers
This simple desire is everlasting

I want things to be simple
Let's finally get across this sea of mournful sorrow

For instance, even if today is painful
Someday it will become a warm memory
If you leave everything up to your heart

I understand the meaning our living here
It is to know the joy of having been born
Let's stay together always

a letter to el... (PART III)

2006-07-04T03:01:00.000+08:00

...believe i never wanted this
i thought this time i'd keep all of my promises
i thought you were the girl always dreamed about
but i let the dream go
and the promises broke
and the make-believe ran out...

~ the end of the beginning of the end ~

2006-05-26T19:25:00.000+08:00

Sebuah Kisah Klasik - So7

(copy pasted dari yg tahun lepas nye, tuka sket2 ayat..
malas nk tulis baru haha :P)

wehuuuu..
dah 3 tahun dah rupanya kt mmu nih!!..
dah menyampah gile sampai dh neutral balik.. muahahaha..
doakan laa aku habis secepat mungkin.. huhu..

hmmm...
its the end of my 3rd year in mmu... and 3 years is a lot.. a lot had happened.. only the memories remain.. and not forgetting a whole lot more of gambars.. but its true isnt it, most of the good memories are with friends kan.. without frens.. life in mmu cyber a.k.a. pdg-jarak-pdg-tekukur ni wud totally suck ass la kan.. muahahaha.. kudos to all frens.. :D we had some good times didnt we? .. and some bad fuckd up times too ;) .. but with frens.. fuckd up is not so bad laa.. yeahhh..

congratulations to all graduating frens :) .. missing u guys & gals already.. huhu.. live a good life and have fun in the real world.. if its not pon, try to make it fun laa.. live life to d fullest, someone said to me.. tapi jgn sampai lupa Tuhan ;) hehe.. mintak ampun maaf sgt2 kalo ade tersalah silap, mintak halal makan minum.. sesape yg aku 'ter'pau tuh haha.. hope to c u guys again.. n to all doing their practicals.. and be coming back sem 2 atau tidak.. i'll see u guys later lah.. all the best..

p/s: dpt gaji nnt ingatlaa mmbr2 yg masih di takuk lame kt sini.. lalalaaa.. hehe ;)~

makan carbonara di HB3..
ade kereta pergi ke ma lee..
terima kasih terhutang budi..
panjang umur kita jumpa lagi..

tuai padi antara masak..
esok jgn layu2an..
intai kami antara nampak..
esok jgn rindu2an..

sleep now in the fire.. episode I..

2006-05-22T06:16:00.000+08:00

The world is my expense, The cost of my desire..
Jesus blessed me with its future..
And I protect it with fire..
So raise your fists, And march around..
Just dont take what you need..
Ill jail and bury those committed..
And smother the rest in greed..
Crawl with me into tomorrow..
Or Ill drag you to your grave..
Im deep inside your children..
Theyll betray you in my name

hey! hey! Sleep now in the fire!

The lie is my expense, The scope of my desire..
The party blessed me with its future..
And I protect it with fire..

I am the Nina The Pinta The Santa Maria..
The noose and the rapist..
The fields overseer, The agents of orange..
The priests of Hiroshima..

The cost of my desire!
Sleep now in the fire!

guerilla radio..

2006-05-22T02:32:00.000+08:00

sleep now in the fire..

2006-05-21T08:33:00.000+08:00

Sleep Now In The Fire - RATM

hey! hey!
Sleep now in the fire..

For its the end of history.. Its caged and frozen still..
There is no other pill to take..
So swallow the one.. That made you ill..

The Nina The Pinta.. The Santa Maria..
The noose and the rapist.. The fields overseer..
The agents of orange.. The priests of Hiroshima..
The cost of my desire..
To Sleep now in the fire..

sleep now in the fire
- 'raged' against the machine -

dunia..

2006-05-21T05:01:00.000+08:00

" lahirmu bukan untuk dunia..
tapi dunia untuk kepulangan kita.."

- ramli sarip -

what is it to you? part II..

2006-05-19T05:46:00.000+08:00

an interesting take on the hijab issue..
A VIDEO!! aptly titled =>
Onpar Pictures - An Evening With the Hijjabbed..
ahhaaa :D
credits to CMC mmu cyberjaya for sharing the video..
and to those people who made it happen..
walaupon rasenye video ni tahun lepas kot..
tq neway..
sesape yg x penah tgk lagi video silelah donlod..
very very interesting.. esp to u my female frens ;)

download the video here.. enjoy =>
http://files.filefront.com/Onpar_Picture_Video_1/;4245817;;/fileinfo.html

The Veil - Daud Wharnsby Ali

dalam kenangan.. 13/5/2006

2006-05-16T03:14:00.000+08:00

http://www.bharian.com.my/m/BHarian/Sunday/Nasional/20060514005935/Article/

sebak rasa hati mengenangkan..
kau pergi tanpa pesan..
menyahut panggilan Tuhan..
hanya doa & fatihah mampu ku kirimkan..
semoga aman & bahagia dikau disana..
ditempatkan bersama para solihin..
dikau takkan di lupakan..
sentiasa dalam kenangan..
sahabat yang di kasihi..
yang dirindui..
zulkifli bin zainal abidin.. 13/5/2006..
al-fatihah..

-bicara sendiri-

Hijjaz - Kau Sahabat Kau Teman Sejati

PLM 2005/06

2006-05-13T03:39:00.000+08:00

PLM 2005/06 ...

hanya doa dan harapan
dapat ku bekalkan buat kalian
semoga bahagia & penuh kejayaan
di sepanjang jalan..

- bicara sendiri -

malam terakhir..

2006-05-13T03:23:00.000+08:00

12 Mei 2006
9 malam
cozy corner alamanda

berakhirnya setahun..
pada satu malam..

-bicara sendiri -

layu..

2006-05-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

akhirnya ia terkulai layu..

-bicara sendiri-

padi & lalang..

2006-05-05T21:01:00.000+08:00

kisah padi & lalang...

andai di tanam padi..
akan tumbuh lalang sekaki..
kalau di tanam lalang..
takkan padi tumbuh sebendang..

inspired by quotes from ustaz radhi..

-bicara sendiri-

what is it to you?

2006-05-05T02:48:00.000+08:00

( copy pasted from http://www.gubra.com.my )
copyright reserved..

".. it gives me freedom.."
this is a story of a girl..
the story of Naheed Mustafa..
read full article at :
http://www.ummah.com/what-is-islam/women/women4.htm

"Faith is more essential than fashion..
wouldnt you agree?.. "

The Veil
Road to Madinah
Dawud Wharsnby Ali
(right click and save target as..)
http://www.freewebs.com/ummum/veil.rm

hanya padaMu kami berserah..
hanya padaMu kami memohon perlindungan..

-bicara sendiri -

.... fiyyuhhhh....

2006-05-04T13:53:00.000+08:00

haha repot FYP dah submit weeeeeeehhhuuuuuuuu!! :D
akhirnyaaaaa!! wahahahhahaa.. MUAHAHAHHAHAAA!!!

a letter to e... (PART 2)

2006-05-04T13:04:00.000+08:00

oh e..

it doesn't matter what you do.. i know i'll never really get inside of you.. to make your eyes catch fire.. the way they should.. the way the blue could pull me in..

if they only would.. if they only would

at least i'd lose this sense of sensing something else.. that hides away.. from me and you.. there're worlds to part.. with aching looks and breaking hearts.. and all the prayers your hands can make.. oh i just take as much as you can throw..

and then throw it all away.. oh i throw it all away..

like throwing faces at the sky.. like throwing arms round.. yesterday.. i stood and stared.. wide-eyed in front of you.. and the face i saw looked back.. the way i wanted to.. but i just can't hold my tears away.. the way you do..

- the cure -

elf why pee.. huhu..

2006-05-04T12:53:00.000+08:00

a letter to.. (PART 1)

2006-04-15T03:08:00.000+08:00

oh ....

it doesn't matter what you say.. i just can't stay here every yesterday.. like keep on acting out the same.. the way we act out.. every way to smile.. forget.. and make-believe we never needed..

any more than this.. any more than this..

- the cure -

munajat..

2006-04-15T02:56:00.000+08:00

kepadaMu Kekasih
aku berserah
kerana ku tahu
kau lebih mengerti
apa yang terlukis di cermin wajahku ini
apa yang tersirat di hati
bersama amali

kepadaMu Kekasih
aku bertanya
apakah Kau akan menerimaku kembali
atau harus menghitung lagi
segala jasa dan bakti
atau harus mencampakku ke sisi
tanpa harga diri

hanya padaMu Kekasih
aku tinggalkan
jawapan yang belum ku temukan
yang bakal aku nantikan
bila malam menjemputku lena beradu

kepadaMu Kekasih Aku serahkan
jiwa dan raga
jua segalanya
apakah Kau akan menerima penyerahan ini
apakah Kau akan menerimaku
dalam keadaan begini..

-m. nasir -

gubra suatu misteri..

2006-04-12T01:19:00.000+08:00

wehuuu..
sesape yang pernah melalui kejadian seperti yang disebutkan..
harap dapat bantu.. huhu..
sape lagi nk tlg kalo bukan kita..
maklumat lanjut di bawah.. please click..

http://yasminthestoryteller.blogspot.com/
(bace comment box dia for more detailed info)

sesape yang nk tgk gubra kt panggung..
digalakkan tidak book online/phone..
tapi pergi terus beli tiket 30 min sblm show..
tapi kalo dah book dan nak book gak.. tp booking kate full..
sile pegi jugak.. dan beli 30 min sblm show...
harap maklum .. slamat nonton..

suluhan cahaya..

2006-04-11T15:42:00.000+08:00

"Sesungguhnya kamu (Muhammad) tidak akan dapat memberi petunjuk kepada orang yang kamu kasihi, tetapi Allah memberi petunjuk kepada orang yang dikehendaki-Nya, dan Allah lebih mengetahui orang-orang yang mau menerima petunjuk."

Al-Qashash (28:56)

http://www.akmaliah.com/index.php?option=com_quran&action=viewayat&surano=28

lampu2 yang berbeza-beza..
tapi cahayanya sama..
yg penting suluhannya..
suluh lah ke jalanNya..
selebihnya urusan Dia..

-bicara sendiri-

The Greatest Man..

2006-04-10T21:35:00.000+08:00

Al-Fath (48 : 29)

tanggal 12 Rabiulawwal, tahun gajah..
569 masihi, kota Makkah...
lahirnya insan agung..
Muhammad bin Abdullah..
Muhammad Rasulullah..
selawat dan salam ke atas junjungan Baginda..
selamat menyambut maulidur rasul 1426..

Sallallahu 'ala Muhammad, sallallahu 'alai hi wasallam..

Muhammad Rasulullah (Peace Be upon Him) more information..
http://www.usc.edu/dept/MSA/fundamentals/prophet/
http://www.usc.edu/dept/MSA/fundamentals/prophet/otherscholars.html

roti kaya & kopi wo..

2006-04-10T14:49:00.000+08:00

this is the intro song for gubra.. a hindi song.. which i came to like very much haha.. and when i read the meaning of the lyrics, it just seems to seemlessly bind itself to the story of gubra.. the sadness of the melody and the joy of the lyrics just goes so well.. a mixing of emotions that from my point of view is what gubra is.. a kaleidoscope of emotions so beautifully woven by yasmin ahmad.. membuatkan aku gabra [bicara sendiri]...
so tunggu ape lagi.. pegi laa tengok kt wayang.. yeahhh :D~

Kabhi kabhi..
[Sometimes sometimes..]

Sometimes the thought comes to my mind
that you've been created just for me
you before this were living in some far off stars
you were summoned to earth just for me
Sometimes the thought comes to my mind
That your body and eyes were kept in trust for me
Your dark hair is mine only
These lips - these arms are mine only
Sometimes the thought comes to my mind
That your beauty was kept in trust for me
Your dark hair is mine only
These lips - these arms are mine only
Sometimes the thought somes to my mind
That you’ll want me intensely
when you lift your eyes full of love towards me
I know you are a stranger but even so (you will smile)
Sometimes the thought somes to my mind
just as one hears music of weddings along the road
its the wedding night , I am lifting your veil
you are coming in my arms all bashful

full text from http://www.ukindia.com/zip2/zlyr5.htm#kab

there are 2 version of this song.. and 1 poem version can be listened at
http://www.dishant.com/album/kabhi_kabhi.html

layann jgn x layann.. sape ade mp3 lagu ni aku nk.. tq :D~

...

2006-04-10T03:10:00.000+08:00

baru kembali dr satu perjalanan..
kembali dr mendoakan roh yg telah pergi..
yg telah mengakhiri perjalanannya di sini..
bermulalah perjalanannya yg lebih jauh di sana..
maka masa aku akan tiba jua..
saat kembali ke perjalanan sebenar..
semoga aku bersedia..

-bicara sendiri-

takziah kepada keluarga Rahim & Isma.. Al-Fatihah..

Daripada Allah kita datang, kepadaNya jualah kita akan kembali...

gubra..

2006-04-08T03:17:00.000+08:00

[ now showing in a theatre near you ]

".. : The simple everyday fact that when we experience betrayal, it is more often than not committed unto us by people who love us; not people who hate us.. "

-yasmin the storyteller-

http://yasminthestoryteller.blogspot.com/2006/03/singapore-straits-times-review-of.html

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

"O mankind! We created you from a single (pair) of a male and a female, and made you into nations and tribes, that ye may know each other (not that ye may despise (each other). Verily the most honoured of you in the sight of Allah is (he who is) the most righteous of you. And Allah has full knowledge and is well acquainted (with all things)." Al-Hujurat (49:13)

kifarah...

2006-04-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

...

if it makes you happy.. it cant be that bad.. reheally??

2006-04-01T05:02:00.000+08:00

lalu aku terfikir yaa..
di celah-celah cahaya samar paparan skrin..
di temani kepulan zarah2 asap brown..
yang melantun-lantun di ruang luas..
yang sempit..
yang akhirnya hilang ditelan gelap..
tinggal hanya sisa-sisa bauan..
serta kelip-kelip bara samar-samar..
di hembus .. di hisap..
terang.. malap..
di hembus .. di hisap..
terang.. malap..
lalu terus di copy-paste..
sehingga ke hujung..
dan berulang semula.. sebentar lagi..
lalu..
apa yang aku terfikir yaa??
hmm..

-bicara sendiri-

batu-batu jalanan..

2006-03-22T05:18:00.000+08:00

In Memory of Faris Odeh (Shot and killed by Israeli forces on November 9, 2000 -- about 10 days after this photo was taken)

sometimes we forget..
choose not to..
al-fatihah..

-bicara sendiri-

Allahumman suril mujahidina fi falastin.. Allahumman suril mujahidina fi kulli makan..

...

2006-03-20T04:24:00.000+08:00

siapalah aku tanpa nya..
terkapailah aku tanpa kasihnya..
tidak terbayangkan dunia tanpanya..
bergenang air mata..
mengenang dosa..
hancur luluh hatiku..
melihat titis air mata..
ampunkanlah segala dosa..
...
wajahnya pengubat luka..
senyumnya penghapus airmata..
tiada redha Dia tanpa redha nya..
tiada syurga tanpa restunya..
dialah segalanya..
...
dialah ummi..

-bicara sendiri-

Ya Allah, ampunkanlah dosa-dosa kedua ibubapaku..
dan rahmati mereka seperti mana mereka mengasihiku..
sejak ku kecil dahulu.. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin...

The answers we find, Are never what we had in mind..

2006-03-20T01:36:00.000+08:00

"If I Am"

So your standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall.
So far down,
Or maybe you were thinking about jumping.

Now you could have it all,
If you learned a little patience!
For though I cannot fly,
I'm not content to crawl!...

So give me a little credit,
Have in me a little faith!
I want to be with you forever,
If tommorow's not too late!...

But it's always too late when you've got nothing
So you say!...

But you should never let the sun set on tommorow,
Before the sun rises today...

IF I AM!
Another waste of everything you dreamed of,
I will let you down...

IF I AM!
Only here to watch as you suffer,
I will let you down...

So your walking on the edge,
And you wait your turn to fall.
But you're so far gone,
That you don't see the hands upheld to catch you.

And you could find the fault,
In the heart that you've been handed!
For though you cannot fly,
You're not content to crawl!...

But it's always too late when you've got nothing
So you say!...

But you should never let the sun set on tommorow,
Before the sun rises today...

IF I AM!
Another waste of everything you dreamed of,
I will let you down...

IF I AM!
Only here to watch as you suffer,
I will let you down...

So you're standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall...

The answers we find,
Are never what we had in mind.
So we make it up as we go along...

You don't talk of dreams
I won't mention tommorow.
And we won't make those promises that we can't keep...

I will never leave you!
I will never let you down...

-if i am-
nine days

ditelan bencana tanah ini...

2006-03-14T05:16:00.000+08:00

4yr old syuhada' Ihlam Assar was killed by Israeli troops firing from tanks and helicopters in a raid that killed seven Palestinians in Nusseirat refugee camp in the Gaza strip.
~
Palestine Monitor.org

al-fatihah..

-bicara sendiri-

.....

2006-03-14T05:10:00.000+08:00

halwa telinga hari ini..

2006-03-14T03:44:00.000+08:00

berita kepada kawan...

Perjalanan ini terasa sangat menyedihkan
Sayang, engkau tak duduk di sampingku kawan
Banyak cerita yang mestinya kau saksikan
Di tanah kering berbatuan

Tubuh ku terguncang di hempas batu jalanan
Hati tergetar menampak kering rerumputan
Perjalan ini pun seperti jadi saksi
Gembala kecil menangis sedih

Kawan coba dengar apa jawabnya
Ketika ia ku tanya "Mengapa?"
Bapak ibunya telah lama mati
Ditelan bencana tanah ini

Sesampainya di laut ku khabarkan semuanya
Kepada karang, kepada ombak, kepada matahari
Tetapi semua diam, tetapi semua bisu
Tinggal aku sendiri terpaku menatap langit

Barangkali di sana ada jawabnya
Mengapa di tanahku terjadi bencana

Mungkin Tuhan mulai bosan melihat tingkah kita
Yang selalu salah dan bangga dengan dosa-dosa
Atau alam mulai enggan bersahabat dengan kita
Coba kita bertanya pada rumput yang bergoyang

EBIET G. ADE
Berita Kepada Kawan

2005-09-19T05:52:00.000+08:00

...

apa yang kau cari?

2005-09-15T17:34:00.000+08:00

.......

so...
so you think you can tell
heaven from hell
blue skies from pain
can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
a smile from a veil?
do you think you can tell?
and did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
hot ashes for trees?
hot air for a cool breeze?
cold comfort for change?
and did you exchange a walk on part in the war
for a lead role in a cage?
how i wish,
how i wish you were here
we're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl
year after year
running over the same old ground
what have we found?
the same old fears
wish you were here...

WISH YOU WERE HERE (6:57)
[sparklehorse featuring thom yorke]
- pink floyd cover -

CATATAN SEORANG TUA..

2005-08-30T03:08:00.001+08:00

a tribute to fighters who fight for freedom...
anywhere everywhere...
fisabilillah...

sempena sambutan 40 tahun
Persatuan Seni SIlat Cekak Ustaz Hanafi..

31 Disember 1996
Malam Puisis Pendekar Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka
Dideklamasikan oleh En. Mohd. Radzi b. Hj. Hanafi,
Presiden merangkap Guru Utama Silat Cekak Hanafi

semalamku ketemu seorang tua
wajahnya bersinar
lirik matanya tajam menikam
lalu ia berpesan

ada beza antara pemburu
dan pejuang
pemburu itu sifatnya mendapatkan
pejuang itu sifatnya membebaskan
pemburu itu sentiasa memilih
pejuang itu tetap pendirian
pemburu itu tidak pernah puas atas perolehannya
pejuang itu sentiasa bersyukur atas kurnianNya
pemburu itu inginkan pujian
pejuang itu sering dihina biarpun membawa kebenaran
pemburu itu matlamatnya acap berpindah
pejuang itu matlamatnya dinamis lagi merdeka
katanya jadilah pejuang yang ikhlas dihati
dan perjuangannya.

Semalamku ketemu seorang tua
wajahnya gelisah
lirik matanya redup dan dingin
lalu ia berpesan

Jangan biarkan payung-payung kecil
berkembang dibawah naugan payung besar
kelak hujan tiada
tetapi air melimpah tidak keruan
katanya lagi
lihatlah ke dalam dirimu
renungkan segala tindakan yang lalu
jangan menuding ke orang lain
kelak bayangnya membaluti dirimu
tambahnya lagi
jadilah seorang pemimpin
hidupnya bisa memimpin
biarpun serba kepayahan
kerana amanah ini harus
dipikul bersama

semalamku ketemu seorang tua
wajahnya tenang
lirik matanya menawan
lalu ia berpesan

bersatulah atas nama perjuangan
perjuangan yang telah lama kita bina
perjuangan bertunjang hak yang satu
perjuangan mengenal diri kita
perjuangan yang bermandikan
titisan darah dan air mata
bangunlah wahai anak-anakku
perjalanan kita masih jauh
tiada lagi masa lesu untuk kita hampiri
tiada lagi keluh kesah untuk kita tatapi
tiada lagi rasa hati untuk kita pendamkan
tiada lagi keraguan untuk kita sangsikan

semalamku ketemu lagi seorang tua
wajahnya lembut
lirik matanya bersahaja
senyumnya tampak puas dan ceria
tiada lagi pesanan dari lelaki tua
kerana hatinya kini tenang.
Kerana dia tahu kitalah
PEWARISNYA.

Nukilan : NASH A.G
Kuala Lumpur.

selamat menyambut hari kemerdekaan yang ke 48..

-bcara sendiri-

the veil..

2005-08-12T19:06:00.000+08:00

The Veil
Road to Madinah
Dawud Wharsnby Ali

They say,
"Oh, poor girl, you're so beautiful you know
It's a shame that you cover up your beauty so."
She just smiles and graciously responds reassuringly,
"This beauty that I have is just one simple part of me.
This body that I have, no stranger has the right to see.
These long clothes, this shawl I wear, ensure my modesty.
Faith is more essential than fashion, wouldn't you agree?"

This hijab,
This mark of piety,
Is an act of faith, a symbol,
For all the world to see.
A simple cloth, to protect her dignity.
So lift the veil from your heart to see the heart of purity.

They tell her,
"Girl, don't you know this is the West and you are free?
You don't need to be oppressed, ashamed of your femininity."
She just shakes her head and she speaks so assuredly,
"See the bill-boards and the magazines that line the check-out isles,
with their phony painted faces and their air-brushed smiles?
Well their sheer clothes and low cut gowns they are really not for me.
You call it freedom, I call it anarchy."

This hijab,
This mark of piety,
Is an act of faith, a symbol,
For all the world to see.
A simple cloth, to protect her dignity.

So lift the veil from your heart
to see the heart of purity.
Lift the veil from your heart
and seek the heart of purity.

insyaAllah..

your late.. MPH1113

2005-07-27T18:08:00.000+08:00

semua gambar late submision MPH1113 a.k.a. your late!
bole di usha di http://ummums.fotopages.com .. plis leave your comments tq :D

pillars of the sky..

2005-07-27T18:07:00.000+08:00

imagine..

~ bicara sendiri ~

on stranger's tide.. ~

i am thankful.. ~ jazakillah ummi ^^,

great quotes on love [part 1] ~

bila rasa itu kembali ~

Unggun - Bersih ~

ada dalam tiada.. ~

bermula semula.. ~

Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet [Chapter 2]

Kahlil Gibran's The Prophet [Chapter 1]

ME ~

mari hadapi kenyataan! ~

KERANDA 152 ~ USMAN AWANG 1967

Tempahan T-Shirt KERANDA 152 (BACA SAMPAI HABIS UTK SEJARAH KERANDA 152)

Sejarah Keranda 152

PEMBERITAHUAN : Al-Fatihah ~

sesi istana budaya : butterfingers PART 1 ~

1000+

hari ini hari mulia ~

i'm 19 years old ~

George Galloway | 2005 speech | Seattle

butterfingers | sesi istana budaya

WAKE UP CALL!!

Peace, Propaganda & the Promised Land: Media & The Israel-Palestine Conflict

Sesi Istana Budaya Butterfingers (updates)

wake up for GAZA! ~

faculties of mind~

pergolakan bukanlah alasan~

in other words..~

fly me to the moon..~

syahdu..~

what to write, wart 2 ride..~

something useful..~

Which Hogwarts Class Would You Teach?

Which Lord of the Rings Character Are You?

What is your theme song?

Which Sesame Street Character Are You?

selamat hari raya aidilfitri 1429 :D~

gajah di lebuhraya..~

lucky..~

kesah yusuf a.s. dan zulaikha..~

its a 3 yrs old weh!.. nais :D~

picasaweb updated!

between knowing & believing.. and both ~

kenduri along & kembali butter..~

JEMPUTAN WALIMATUL URUS (HANNANI & SYAHRIL)

percayalah wahai sahabat..~ (PART 1)

note to self..~

fikrah aku, kau & dia..~

the ironically ironic ikan 3 rasa..~

the history & the gift..~

blogger vs. blog-paster..~

butterfingers - kembali ..~

surat orang rombau nogori 9..

rata-rata..

aku dalam diri..

hmm..

:: GEMA 2007 ::

audi0warfare 2007

jommm!!!

:: GEMA 2007 ::

jejari mentega kembali :D~

lets talk 2..

barriers..

puisi-puisi maulana rumi...

kopi & kehidupan..

lekuk indah hadirkan pesona...

jentayu...

a song for frens :D~

a letter to el... (PART III)

~ the end of the beginning of the end ~

sleep now in the fire.. episode I..

guerilla radio..

sleep now in the fire..

dunia..

what is it to you? part II..

dalam kenangan.. 13/5/2006

PLM 2005/06

malam terakhir..

layu..