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:: 18.9.08 ::

~ gajah di lebuhraya..~

sedang aku menunggang motosikal terchenta pulang ke rumah selepas 'jamuan' berbuka, kira kira dalam jam 10 mlm lbh kurang..

sambil didendangkn lagu2 dari kembali-butterfingers, joget global, bebas dan seterusnya maharani.. lagu kegemaran aku : mati hidup kembali, x sempat dengar sbb trip blk umah lalu elite cuma ambil masa dlm 15 minit dr exit USJ.. lgpn tu lagu last dlm album ni..

pd masa yg sama, terigt aku satu video di youtube yg aku tgk mlm smlm.. temubual butterfingers di melodi.. yg sesungguhnya sangat membenarkan lagu merpati sejoli dr album selamat tinggal dunia.. to quote : "wartawan hiburan! pondan! homoseksual!"..

seperti biasa, melodi potong klip2 intebiu yg hanya dpt mereka manipulasi.. x tau la ape derang ni dengki khianat kt butter.. menyampah plak aku dgr komen2 suara latar yg penuh dgn kejahilan huhu (saba2, puasa ni).. x tau ape maksud underground tp nk komen.. x tau ape maksud indie tp nk komen.. x tau latar belakang n evolusi musik butter (bunyi butter) tp nk komen.. men redah je x tengok signbod ini la jdnye.. cube la wat background study sket, research sket baru la komen bagus2.. ni hapak pon tarak.. geram plak aku..

ha berbalik kpd tajuk utama.. sedang2 sume tu berlaku.. ternampak la lampu terang di side mirror kanan aku.. lori besar ni.. laju nmpk gayenye.. aku pn mcm biase amik kiri masuk emergency lane a.k.a. laluan motosikal DIY.. lori tu pon potong la.. mmg besar lori tu..

tapi yg aku tekejut smpai ternganga mulut.. ade benda lagi besar kt belakang.. get this.. ade GAJAH besar nk mampus atas lori tu!!! huhuhu.. masyaAllah!!.. dgn selambenye gajah tu diletakkan di blkng lori tu tanpa cover ke hape ke.. besar weh gajah tu, bapak gajah agaknye.. mmg aku tekejut beruk dpt sesikat pisang la jawabnye.. tgh2 aku tenganga tu, aku tepk.. gajah ni kene culik ke ape.. ke ade sarkas in town yg aku x tau? .. tapi satu lg benda yg wat aku pelik.. gajah tu mcm tengah menari2 atas lori tu.. ke kiri, ke kanan, kirii, kanan.. gajah tu gerakkan badan.. mungkin gajah tu tgh dengar lagu kegemaran die kot(sangka baik) mcm aku.. wallahua'lam..

seekor gajah di lebuhraya malaysia.. tu la org kate.. jauh berjalan, luas pandangan.. ha mmg luas la gajah tu haha.. semestinya satu pengalaman yg nais dan unik utk aku.. tesengih aku kejap sblm exit bandar saujana putra.. dan alhamdulillah kembali aku ke rumah dgn selamat..

walaupun lebuhraya sunyi, jiwa tak semestinya sepi..~

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posted by 'ummum' hamam | 04:25 | 2 comments |comment here tq|

:: 12.9.08 ::

~ lucky..~

i just listend to a song by jason mraz n colbie cailat (the title is as this post ), n non-coincidentally(new word?) it happens to be the default song of this blog of mine..

for now lah.. we'll see how long this song be playing in my head..

obviously its a love song.. n the words have tied its tunes to me.. i have to admit.. jason's (mraz) songs are really reallllyy good.. i think all his singles are hits.. so enough bout him.. he shud thank God that he has the talent.. n this song maybe his way to say that his thankful.. perhaps not to God.. but by feeling lucky ur actually saying thanks to a greater power for all the things that makes u feel lucky..

i think i'm lucky.. but u know.. if u say it too often (lucky), its sounds quite sucky like that bwitney song(sorry to anyone who liked that song of hers) huhuhu..

anyway.. I AM lucky.. hmm better make a list of why i'm lucky.. everyone making a list nowadays.. its easier n straight to d point neway..

the list of my luckiness (is this a word?) as it pops in my head:

- although our beloved shiki have been missing for a few weeks now.. umi cried hmm, i know umi missed her very much.. we're lucky that we've been given almost 9 years of happiness wif her, to care n love her.. now we leave her in Allah's hand..

- eventhough it seems there's not enough food/money to go by.. there is still enough money n food to go by.. alhamdulillah (miraclously we cooked todays sahur huhu :P)

- i have 1 mummy cat (tomot) n 3 of her small kittens (bowyen, budeyh n bulat).. although they just dont seem to care where they answer nature's call huhu (it smells like shit, cat shit) n it pisses me off sumtimes.. we're lucky that we have them.. cats have a way of making u smile n be at peace..

- last but not least.. i'm lucky to be given the chance by Allah to go through Ramadhan this year.. i ask Allah to forgive me if i have not done well this time around.. i pray that i'll be given a chance to meet Ramadhan again.. aminn..

- i'm just lucky to be alive n well.. alhamdulillahi rabbil 'alamin..

(the list was not of point form, more of paragraphic(a new word again?) so what haha :P)

so if ur reading this.. ur really lucky!! your alive!!

yeah u might have some.. or many shortcomings.. might not have enough money to spend.. might have failed in ur last attempt at love.. might just have plain bad luck all the time(or so it seems).. might have the most depressing feeling in the world.. might have fallen in the same hole twice.. might have etc etc..

just remember.. YOUR JUST LUCKY TO BE ALIVE!!

alhamdulillah!! praise be to Allah!

so make the best of it..

make the best of Ramadhan..

insyaAllah.. by Allah's will..

wallahua'lam..~

ps: if i dont c ya.. slmt berpuasa, berbuka, dan bersahur.. jgn lupe doakan saya & semua :)~

"aku bertuah dengan izinNya..~"

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posted by 'ummum' hamam | 10:20 | 0 comments |comment here tq|

:: 3.9.08 ::

~ kesah yusuf a.s. dan zulaikha..~

satu babak..

fahri cuba solat tetapi tangisan & kesedihan teramat pedih tidak tertahan menggangu tumpuan..

banduan : (sambil tergelak sinis) "anak al-azhar kok tidak tau apa itu isi solat"
banduan gelak lagi..
banduan : "jangan-jangan kau solat cuma kalo ada masalah?!"
terus gelak melihat kebingungan & kesedihan fahri..

dua babak..

fahri menangis kecewa, meruntun sedih tatkala mendapat surat dibuang dr al-azhar semasa di penjara..

banduan : (sambil gelak jahat) "dikeluarkan dr al-azhar?"

terus gelak..

banduan : "itu bukan kiamat fahri!"

sambil melempar surat ke sisi fahri..

banduan : "ayuh bangunn!! bangun fahri! bangun!!"

lalu diangkat fahri ke dinding!

banduan : "ALLAH sedang berbicara denganmu fahri!!"

banduan : "ALLAH sedang mengingatkanmu utk tidak sombong!!"

fahri menepis lalu mengadu kesedihan penuh kecewa..

fahri : "Apa salah saya pd ALLAH??!!"

banduan gelak berdekah2..

fahri : "kenapa ALLAH buat begini pada saya?!"

fahri tidak keruan..

banduan : "istighfar indonesia!! istighfar!!"

lalu ditarik baju fahri, digoncang2 tubuhnya..

banduan : "ingat lagi siapa dirimu!! hahahaha!! apa yg telah kau lakukan selama ini?! haa!"

banduan bergerak ke blkg fahri..

banduan : "tidakkah kau SOMBONG fahri??!! haa?!" kau merasa PALING BENAR!! kau merasa PALING SUCI!! bahkan dihadapan isterimu sendiri!! hahahhaa!!"

fahri : (sambil menepis membuat penafian) ahh!!"

banduan terus gelak..

lalu serius berkata..

banduan : " kau ingat? kisah yusuf a.s. dan zulaikha ha?"

masih lagi tergelak..

kembali serius..

banduan : "zulaikha telah menuduh yusuf telah memperkosanya! padahal zulaikha tertawan dengan ketampanan yusuf.. fitnah!! itu semua fitnah, fahri!! zulaikha memfitnah yusuf memperkosa dia sehingga yusuf dipenjara.. Apakah yusuf berontak? tidak fahri.. yusuf tau ALLAH sedang berbicara pdnya! ko mau tau apa yang dikatakan yusuf??"

fahri terus bingung kesedihan..

banduan : (menolak fahri ke dinding!) "kau mau tau apa yg dikatakan yusuf??!! haa?! kata yusuf.. "Ya ALLAH, jika memang kehidupan penjara lebih bererti bgku drpd dunia luar, maka aku lebih memilih tinggal di penjara tp dekat dgnMU, drpd aku hidup bersama manusia pendusta!!"

....

banduan : (dgn nada sedih) "ALLAH sedang berbicara kepadamu tentang SABAR dan IKHLAS.."

banduan : "SABAR.. dan IKHLAS.. itu ISLAM, fahri.."

fahri tertunduk malu.. tak tertahan lagi kesedihan dan keinsafan yang menyelubungi diri..

astaghfirullahal azimm//

astaghfirullah rabbal baraayaa//

astaghfirullah ha innahu kana ghaffaraa//

walaa haulaa walaa quwwata illa billah//

satu & dua babak dr filem ayat-ayat cinta..~

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